Posted by pork chop on January 16, 2003, at 21:35:34
In reply to Re: Lamictal » catmint, posted by colin wallace on January 13, 2003, at 8:11:49
Sometimes I'm great and I'm thinking, Wow, this Lamictal stuff is awesome. Other times I get sooooo low. I'm swinging throughout the day. I'm bored, antsy, restless and desperate. Once I start to feel better something minor will spiral me into an angry rage and then I wind up back in the same crappy depression that I just got out of. This happens almost every day.
Anytime I add alcohol I'm guaranteed two days worth of depression. But I enjoy drinking and I'm having a hard time not going out with friends on the weekends, or coworkers after work. Everyone says you can have fun without the booze, but I think that's garbage. What fun is it to stand in a bar sober when everyone else is buzzed?
I just can't find any balance in life. I get a promotion, I ask for a bigger promotion. A guy is remotely intersted in me, I'm picking out the honeymoon destination. It's all or nothing with relationships, work, shopping, vacations etc... Am I an alcoholic, do I have bipolar, or am I completely normal and this is how everyone feels? I'm obviously in a bad mood right now, but who knows, I might be fine in 10 minutes...
oh yeah, I'm on 100 mg. Lamictal and take Klonopin as needed.
Hope I didn't just bring everybody down, but I feel better after venting so thanks!
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