Posted by Blah on October 18, 2002, at 11:40:04
In reply to Re: For Blah.. what I sensed about you, posted by Pfinstegg on October 17, 2002, at 13:58:07
> 4. Do you have a really good psychotherapist? If you can find the right combination of drug/physiological treatment to get feeling better enough to feel more hopeful about therapy, then you need one skilled enough to help you begin to have new, positive experiences with him/her so that you can build on those to develop a satisfying life for yourself.I feel she's good. She is supportive and nonjudgemental, and does not have a personal or theoretical agenda beyond my well being, which is much more than I can say for most thearapists. However, I think thearapy can only be management at this point. I think I've had all my breakthroughs, or at least most of them. It's just that I'm in so much pain I can't use that knowledge.
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> All this doesn't have to take 20 years; it could take two. The really, really hard thing is to find all the elements you need so that it will happen. I personally really want to know what happens- will you keep in touch?
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> Pfinstegg
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> As for romance- well, that's the hardest thing for anyone, well, or ill! Why not give yourself a little break in your expectations in that area until you feel better? You said your spirits are lifted by even small human encounters- you could concentrate on the least-stressful, rewarding and brief of those for the time being. When you feel better, there'll be a lovable girl(s) out there for you.If Nardil or something really starts to work, maybe I could put off women, but now doing that just fills me with lonelyness and inadiquacy. Especially when I see my friends relationships. Also platonic friendships are loosing much of there umph. It starts to feel repetative when it can never lead to something more intamate (I don't just mean sexually). Also in two years I will be 30. I feel as if my youth has been wasted. Maybe it will be worth it if it comes but I've had so many false cures before that I can't be possitive without some results. In the end my situation would not be so bad if i had had some relationships and sex along the way. In the end affection is more powerful than drugs.
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