Posted by audrey on September 16, 2002, at 21:55:50
In reply to Re: Hospitalization?, posted by sjb on September 16, 2002, at 11:25:20
Thanks everyone for your support and words of encouragement. That alone has helped me so much over the last day or so. Well, that and all the klonopin I'm taking to calm me down!
Amazingly, my husband sent an e-mail to my pdoc last night telling him what transpired over the weekend. Not a word. I know he checks his e-mail between 8:30 and 9am on weekdays, so I'm quite sure he received it. I also called and left a voice mail for him today telling him I really needed to figure out where to go from here. No response. I feel really angry and abandoned. I thought he was a good doctor, but I guess just because one has a good rapport wtih the doctor that doesn't mean he's "good." If I were to indeed attempt to or successfully commit suicide again today, I think he might be a bit at fault. If I were a spiteful woman... Just kidding, just kidding!
Anyway, I just took a few klonopin, hoping I can get some sleep tonight. I took today off from work, but have to go back tomorrow. I'm thinking of trying a 72 hour stint in a hospital or something like that, and making up some "family emergency," or something along those lines -- which isn't far from the truth. Can anyone tell me what their experiences have been like while hospitalized? Interestingly, in my job, I find programs like these for people all over the state and sometimes in other states, but I don't know what the programs are really like! Isn't that sad? Where am I sending these poor souls? But that's another post, I guess! So I guess I'd like to know what I'm in for. If I don't hear back from my pdoc, I'll go to emergency and have them admit me to a program. I NEED to do SOMETHING! I can't stand feeling this way anymore.
Anyway, thanks again to everyone who has listened and offered advice, and kind words. You've helped more than you can imagine.
And SJB, I'm glad I could help you. I hope you are getting the medical attention YOU need. Best of luck.
Audrey
> Audrey, You sound like such an especially wonderful woman and your posts have helped me a great deal, if only for not feeling so alone.
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> I don't think I am bi-polar but some of your experiences, lifestyle are similar to mine.
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> Please tell you Doc exactly what you've told us. I know there are many facilities in Boston, if you decide to go that route. You are not alone and you will get better!
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> sjb
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