Posted by MomO3 on May 18, 2002, at 23:24:46
In reply to Re: here are my thoughts... » MomO3, posted by krazy kat on May 17, 2002, at 10:52:24
KrazyKat,
Thanks for talking with me... my symptoms or original diagnosis leads me full circle back to my original post. Before I went to the pdoc, I did a little research and thought "I have ADD" - I took my reasons to the pdoc and he agreed with me. At that time I knew little of Bipolar and was unaware that BPII existed... Pdoc & I have 'discussed' BPII and I could probably make a pretty convincing argument there - but haven't yet. I don't want him to re-diagnose me and be wrong. He prescribed the neurontin to reduce irritability, anxiety, and help with my sleep disorder.
If it works better than the pstims is that an indication that BPII might be a better diagnosis than ADD?
If the pstims make me manic is that an indicator?
I mean - ok - my depressive episodes are obvious -
But the mania or hypomania are not so obvious to me. Does packing up everything you own and moving 1000 miles for a job INTERVIEW qualify? I got the job, so that was good (I guess) I don't know what I would have done if I hadn't gotten the job...
I was definitely experiencing grandiosity - paying exorbitant rates to stay in the top of the tallest hotel in Denver. I bought thousands of $$ worth of clothes, ski wear, etc before my first day at work. I was (as I wrote on the post card) "on top of the world". Six months later I sat on the kitchen floor in my apartment and took a knife to my wrists, I didn't do enough damage to end up in the hospital, but some girls at work saw the bandages on my wrists and my employer sent me to the EAP - who put me back on Prozac. Two months after that I moved home with mom & dad.
What do you think? Manic? Hypomanic? strange coincidence?
> Mom:
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> Neurontin is a "mild" stabilizer, and some think it's actually an anti-anxiety drug.
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> Yeah, it should be calming, and that may mean you lose your fight. Post a question to Wendy B. if you get a chance, and Ritch - they both have taken it for awhile and have a bit of experience with it.
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> Frankly, I don't know what a stabilizer if one is not bipolar, and i don't recall what your symptoms are. As a Bipolar, it very literally stabilizes - I don't get depressed or manic. Some would say one Has to have an Anti-Depressant as well, but that's not the case for me.
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> Now mania and sever depression are not just extreme emotions for Bipolars - they have a life and definition of their own. One acts unlike oneself (suicidal or reckless) and one's perceptions become completely off-key.
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> Again, repost this since it was just archived and stick Neurontin in the subject line.
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> Good luck.
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> - kk
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