Posted by Marie416 on May 17, 2002, at 16:03:47
In reply to Re: Need OCD info and experiences » MomO3, posted by BarbaraCat on May 17, 2002, at 13:14:14
OCD is not fun to go through but can be funny after the fact. My best friend has to take the trash out as soon as one thing is put in there and the entire house has to be spotless. When we were younger she had to vacuum the rugs in perfectly straight lines and if she messed up, it was back to the drawing board. She also used to have to say things 3 times and if she felt like she messed up, another 3 times and then another. I remember as kids that I thought she was kidding/playing a game when she did that. I too have had my own experience with it, as a child at times I would feel this excessive desire to fix the part in someone's hair and feel very frustrated if I couldn't do it (especially watching TV) In my 20's I experienced the worst of all my obsessions, the obsession that I had a very hard time talking about to anyone and when I did I felt like an idiot. I started having anxiety attacks and developed tinnitus and my hearing just felt really acute all the time. I could not stop obsessing over the Phantom sounds and then I couldn't stop obsessing over the fact that I felt I was going crazy and then I started repeating sounds to myself. It was as if I was checking to make sure the sound was real and whether I was going crazy or not. Every time a door slammed or any object clicked or made a sharp noise I would repeat the sound in my mind over and over and over again until I would replay sounds so often I felt that I could constantly hear the sound. It was the most excruciating time in my life. I even started trying to put objects down lightly so I wouldn't make a loud noise. And on top of that I would repeat in my mind what anyone would say as soon as they were done saying it. OCD is different than obsessing, obsessing is linked to depression, OCD is repetitous. It's not so much obsessing about different topics, that's more straight anxiety. It's the same one or two thoughts over and over from morning until night.
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