Posted by sue doe on March 8, 2002, at 8:16:34
In reply to Re: Still, I want to know who I was!, posted by mdertinger on March 8, 2002, at 7:41:13
I do wish you luck.. there are days when I too image being drug free, when I worry about the long term effect of taking AD's for 30-40 years.
Thanks for keeping me true, I spent the summer of 2000 in the hospital. This was after my husband had spent 2 years in a constant drunk, staying always with his mother who lives next door. I watched a successful business collapse, and my healthy children lose heart. When they put me in I have been quite paranoid, interpreting everything as part of some grand scheme. I was put on depakote. In fall of 2001 I went to work for awhile and enrolled in college (finishing a twenty-year stagnant degree). All the time I had been gaining weight. I switched to effexor because my brother is successful with it, and so is his son.
Now I am feeling depressed again, and I thought I was eating compulsively on effexor. Look at me now! I've already hit the doughnut trail! Here I go again. I've never enjoyed being fat. I hate it. Before I give up and go back on meds I am going to try good old fashioned "self-control". Eating is a self-hate response. Day six, and I'm slipping a bit.
By the way, I also had a complete hysterectomy in 1998 (notice the root word is same as hysterical). --Why do we give our docs so much liberty? And I have been taking thyroxin since 1986 when I collapsed a previous time.
Sue Doe (nym)
P.S. Fake name, helps to develop alternative personalities! Schizos are said not to have multiple personalities after all. Maybe we just need extra scapegoats!
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