Posted by Gracie2 on October 19, 2001, at 17:00:46
In reply to Re: Should i take AD's? » Gracie2, posted by Edward on October 18, 2001, at 18:37:21
Ed,
I can't pinpoint any single thing you said to make me think that you're an artist, but I did get that impression. By artist I mean a creative person - a painter, writer, poet, musician - and others who create - jewelry-makers, cake decorators, interior designers, gourmet chefs.My unofficial, amateur opinion is that you ARE depressed and have been so since childhood. You probably did not see me, but I was in the same boat with you. I believe as you do, that "normal" is nothing but a setting on a washing machine (I believe I read that quote here on PB). Still, you have been depressed for such a long time, you believe that this is an ingrained part of your personality and there's nothing you can do about it. It's not true.
I am an artist myself (it doesn't provide a steady income, but maybe some day). When I'm feeling depressed, my painting - like you said -
becomes boring and pointless. Losing interest in the things you like is a definate sign of depression. I wouldn't be surprised if, with proper treatment and medication, your creative spirit will return. It's a shame to waste a God-given talent, and not using it - I believe - will only depress you further.It seems clear to me, unfair as it is, that "creative types" - from Slyvia Plath to Jackson Pollock - often struggle with depression.
I think you owe it to yourself to find a good psychiatrist (see "doctor shopping" thread above)
and start therapy. If you have concerns about ADs,
discuss that with your pdoc. At the very least, you could get a prescription for Xanax or Klonapin to take PRN (only when you are feeling particularly anxious about something).Please give it a try, and good luck - we may all be asking for your autograph someday.
*Gracie
P.S. Your prose is excellent.
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