Posted by terra miller on July 22, 2001, at 4:48:49
In reply to Re: buspar and the bathroom: elizabeth and sl, posted by sl on July 21, 2001, at 18:34:02
it's 4am-ish and i'm up because i feel like a balloon and i can't seem to pee..... sorry for the frankness but i'm reeeeeeeeally frustrated! (sorry for the vent)
what else is there out there, because i'm not doing so well here!
*****Is this from the trazodone or the buspar??????
When I agreed (very reluctantly) to try medication, it was because it made sense to me that my chemical balance might be taxed from years of grueling therapy. I was having trouble sleeping and with irritability/panic. Initially, all I needed was ativan. Then I didn't like how often I seemed to need it and how the irritability only went away while I was using the ativan and returned promptly after 4 hours. So I agreed to a longer acting medication and have since tried all the SSRI's (except Luvox which isn't appropriate in my case), effexor and serzone, and ambien. I did the best on the serzone, but I had too much swelling at the higher dosages which I needed. So I switched to wellbutrin which has helped me be productive but I fear it is only helping encourage the "high-rev cycle of being busy in order to manage the anxiety/fear produced in facing my issues in therapy." The wellbutrin _is_ very helpful, but I am still anxious and irritable, and I can't seem to find anything to calm me down. I've thought about Klonopin, but I don't know if I'll just end up dependent (that is, using it to treat withdrawal symptoms instead of the anxiety.)
*****Could I take Klonopin even if I have what seems to be a high addiction potential? The ativan really messed with me. I know most people tolerate it just fine, but I really am one of those that seems to get in trouble. I want help but it is _not_ helpful to manage withdrawal symptoms, amd I end up taking more and more and more simply because I get crabbier and crabbier and crabbier. I've got kids to raise. Something has got to change and I'm too exausted mentally and physically to keep venturing into the unknown of trials with new drugs. Getting on wellbutrin was grueling for me (irritability/rage), but I toughed it out a long and hard 5 weeks and it got better. I don't have it in me to keep "putting up" with side-effects in order to see how helpful a drug might be for me. HELP!
Trazodone is supposed to help knock you out so you can sleep. I'm so darned hypervigilant lately that I just can't rationally convince myself that I am in a safe place.... so I can't relax to fall asleep. I managed tonight to sedate myself enough with 100mg so that I could fall off to sleep, but that lasted all of 4 hours. I am SOOOO sleep deprived!
*****Is it possible to take the trazodone twice? ie: at bedtime and again if you wake and can't get back off to sleep?????
> (by the way, edema IS a side-effect of BuSpar as well, it's just not one _I_ have a problem with.)
< sigh >
And my headaches are killing me (while I'm complaining...._
exhausted, tired and suffering -Terra
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