Posted by Kristi on May 20, 2001, at 22:50:13
In reply to Re: Anyone? Kristi, posted by stjames on May 20, 2001, at 17:57:25
> James here.....
> Thank you for thanking me (and others) ! Thank you also for using the archives ! Could you give me some more info ?Of course....
> 1) Tell us every AD you have tried, dose, length of treatment and positive/negative effectsFirst AD was Prozac. I believe I was on 40mg for approx 4 months. I really didn't feel any positive on this one. Negative... major shakiness, to the point where I couldn't even type/write, around the clock. Insomnia, naseau.. I have the least memory of this one since it was farther back.
Next was Effexor XR. Started at 37.5 and worked up to 150mg. Stayed on 150mg for about 2 months. Felt very apathetic. Which I kind of liked... mentally, but psyically no motivation. It leveled out my "emotions". At the time I started the AD's.. after a family suicide.. I just bottomed out... anxiety attacks, crying 24/7. The effexor helped that. But almost to the point where it felt like I didn't have emotion. Then I felt guilty... because It was almost blocking me from some grieving. I know.. sounds weird. I didn't want to grieve, but I did want to grieve. So anyway.... the last month for some reason I was just constantly sick. I couldn't hold anything down. I was down to 92 lbs, my normal weight is usually within 110-115. Dizziness.... I would wake up in the middle of the night and try to walk to the bathroom or whatever and literally run into walls or even fall. Then a rash developed on my neck... that's when I stopped.
Lastly...celexa.... helped the crying.... but I was very agitated.... but tired at the same time. Just an overall "weird" feeling. I only stayed on that for 4 weeks. Then I basically gave up on the AD's.
> 2) Describe your depression and motivation issues
> a little more. Like what can or can't you do, what are your thoughts and moods like, how changable are your moods, ect.
My depression seems to be getting better everyday. I feel less and less "sorry for myself".... no longer thoughts of suicide.. in general feel better... but it doesn't take much to set me off.....
I can do just about anything... but it's a major torchure getting myself to do it. But once I'm doing it, I'm fine. Like work.... dread it, stall, get there... I'm fine. My moods basically are good when I'm around people, and bad when I'm alone. I'm single and 31, and live alone.
> At the neurological level "motvation" is a noradernergic issue.
I'm not sure what that means(sorry).. :-) What's noradernergic? Your probably all laughing at me for having to ask that. J/k.James
Thanks for responding James!
poster:Kristi
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