Posted by Miss Amy on March 11, 2001, at 15:52:21
In reply to Re: Pray and meditation and medication? » Miss Amy, posted by dj on March 11, 2001, at 12:51:03
> > ...sunshine, exercise, AND meditation don't hurt and are often included ...with medication. BUT, after resisting medication for 14 years, trying to "cure" myself with "happy thoughts", I >was practically suicidal...
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> So what meds did you use and what difference did they make?
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> > P.S. I believe in God and his power to heal, but I also have to be realistic---perhaps he made >me this way for a reason.
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> Being realistic then, WHY would G. make anyone depressive and suicidal, if it is supposed to be a benevolent force??
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> a curious, dj...Hey Mr. DJ,
I started taking serzone last December. I still have ups and downs, but for the first time in years I am able to actually get really excited about things--kind of like how I felt when I was a little girl. I still have days when I hole up in bed and question my existance, but those are becoming less frequent. As far as my depression being for a reason, that is the only way I can rationalize it. I think EVERYTHING happens for a reason--call it karma--I don't know. This is just my way of coping, I am not saying it's the right affirmation for everyone. My depression is causing me to focus on my emotional issues and in the end will make me a better person. I am very sensitive to my surroundings (that is how I define panic disorder) and an older friend once told me that in the end, that is actually a blessing. It is difficult for me to feel blessed whilst in the throws of an anxiety attack, but i am learning to embrace and accept that part of me. To love that part of me--it is who I am. (instead of saying why Why WHY?? : )
I hope this babbling reply answered your question!
Amy
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