Posted by Mark H. on January 29, 2001, at 19:56:34
In reply to What am I doing?, posted by Lexie on January 29, 2001, at 5:40:00
Dear Lexie,
I can certainly relate, but I also know how dangerous that feeling is. Is there someone in your household whom you would trust to keep the medicine for you, specifically so you won't ever be tempted in a moment of weakness or despair to use it to take your life?
How about backing off from thinking the "ultimate" way out is an option, and instead think that if you have some horrible day, you can call your doctor and ask her/him for permission to stay home sick, take one or two sedatives (whatever comprises a safe yet effective dose), and just sleep until you feel better? Generally, when we're seriously depressed, our judgment isn't all that good anyway. If we ended it then, there's no telling what wonderful change the next day might have brought.
Please find some way to take comfort and pleasure in thinking that you have the support you need to get through a bad stretch of hours or days -- not by killing yourself, but by taking additional medication responsibly under the care of your doctor.
Warm regards,
Mark H.
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