Posted by Amo on October 19, 2000, at 19:04:10
Two years ago I experienced more emotional pain than I thought was humanly possible. I couldn't sleep, lost 20 lbs., couldn't concentrate, had daily panic attacks and cried incessantly. After a few months of this living hell I went to the doctor who prescribed 20mg Paxil; because that treatment was effective for my sister's depression. After a month or so, I began feeling like myself again. Working, living, traveling, playing-finally I was back. I stayed on the Paxil, either at 20 or 30 mg, for a year and a half. I decided to go off the Paxil because I felt fine and stable, and I hoped the incident was an isolated event. BUT, for about two months now I've had a recurrence of the depression. Loss of appetite, sleep disturbance, anxiety, panic, long crying bouts-ugh. I went to the shrink immediately and started the Paxil again. I went from 20mg-no good at 3 weeks. Up to 30mg for the next 2 weeks. I had a good response for 10 days and then I was back to crying and panic. He just put me up to 40mg and I am desperately praying this is it. But I'm scared! I never expected, or ever wanted, too feel this horrible again. I'm so scared I'm going to have to deal with this the rest of my life and I don't know what I'll do if this pain doesn't end soon!
poster:Amo
thread:46801
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