Posted by CarolAnn on July 5, 2000, at 17:51:43
In reply to the river is running dry, posted by ryan_s on July 5, 2000, at 16:11:55
ryan,
I can definitly relate to you and I want you to know that you are not alone. You say that along with the medications, you have been in therapy for two yrs. I just have to wonder whether you might benefit from a new therapist. I have always had self-esteem issues with my depression and sometimes the negative self-talk comes back. But a really good therapist should help you learn coping mechanisms for this type of thing. Even though I still suffer depression and occasional low-self esteem, my two yrs of therapy taught me so much about myself and where the negative words come from and how to deal with them, that I no longer suffer "chronic" low-self esteem (which you seem to suffer). The thing is(and I had to learn this too), there probably isn't a 'magic' pill that will cure low self-esteem. It really is a habit of mind that needs to be broken and you need help breaking it. Medication will help with mood, but it cannot cure feelings that may be rooted in the past, and the past is where your negative self talk comes from. Well, I hope you don't mind the analyses, but it's all stuff that I spent two years learning for myself and I hate to see someone suffering, when I can pass on experience of mine that could help.
I feel like I'm holding you prisoner with words, this is so long, so I will stop for now. But, I am here almost every day(except this Thurs. Fri. & Sat. out of town), so if you aren't too offended by all this, I really do care. Meanwhile, some of the other babblers have found a very helpful visualization that I wrote to a girl named Rach. It's not too far back in the threads, not more then month or so, it's in a thread that Rach started with a post about her "heavy heart". I hope you can find my post and imagine that I wrote it for you, because it's for everyone who feels the way you do. love to you, CarolAnn
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