Posted by Noa on June 2, 2000, at 12:36:08
In reply to I am having a life-ache...can you relate? (long) , posted by me-but-not-me on May 31, 2000, at 20:48:13
I always feel that my place is so filthy, it is beyond description, so I deeply appreciate your courage and strength in actually describing yours. Mine is not far off from what you describe.
Perhaps I haven't stopped taking the trash out altogether, but I am quite delinquent in doing so. My level of caring about the cleanliness has gone from being extremely clean to tolerating and living with real filth--real trash all over the place. It is a perplexing thing. It bothers me, but I tend to dissociate from it to cope. Every so often, I make a stab at cleaning it up, but then I let it deteriorate again and this adds to the feeling of "why bother?" Now that I am feeling less depressed, I want to start cleaning up a bit, but am still avoiding it.
I do wonder whether you have the whole picture on your depression. I think checking out the thyroid or another endocrine problem is worth it. It might be that some undiagnosed medical problem is what is making it hard for you to respond to the meds.
Please write and respond to all the posts. I am interested to hear how you are doing.
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