Posted by roof8 on January 9, 2000, at 16:06:17
In reply to Feelings for my psychopharmacologist, posted by Alan on January 5, 2000, at 23:47:04
I will just told you about my own experience about transference. (first, once again, sorry for my english, It's not my mother language)
when I was 18, I began to feel depressed, and had somatic problem: like hair loss, chronic pain... always sick in my head and my body.
One day I went to a pdoc, a woman (I'm also a woman) and I didn't understood what happened, I fall in love with her ! (normally I fall in love with men, not women). And it was transference, i.e. I was feeling for her, what a child normally feels for his/her mother. (This process was discovered by Freud.)It was stonger than all I had ever felt before in my life. After about one year, I could tell her and she understood and explain me: she was like a parent to me and was giving me what I my read parents never gave me in my childhood.
After this, It was like a miracle, because my hair stopped falling. I was feeling really different, my personality has changed.
But after one year this pdoc went in an other town. She left me and I couldn't follow her. Since then, I have been trying to replace her by someone else. Why ? because I still have depression. And I'm sure that if I could have finished my therapy with her, now I woudl be cured, I woudln't need anymore medications.
What I can advise you is to try to stay by your pdoc until all this is finished. I mean, until you understand what's happen in the relation, What it means these feeling. It's not just a simple love. It'a a natural way to cure psychological problems. You could read psychoanalysis books to understand more of that, about "emotional correcting experiences". Psychoanalysis is not an old fashionned think, like medications sellers try to make us believe. Psychoanalysis doesn't mean only Freud, there is also recent ones. But always very difficult to read and understand, if you are not a specialist.
The last problem is I hope your pdoc knows something about transference, because some of them don't understand this. I think the better think you can do, is just try to tell your pdoc about what you feel exactly, and you'll see.
Good luck.
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