Posted by Racer on December 24, 2005, at 16:51:34
In reply to Testing the Waters of SI ..(possible trigger!!!!!), posted by shar on December 23, 2005, at 18:03:26
> Anyhow, I've been testing the waters of self-injury, and today thought 'maybe this is a substitute for suicide.' Sort of a way of harming myself without doing the ultimate harm. Hmmm. I'm just wondering.
Did you ever read "I Never Promised You A Rose Garden?" There's something in there about SeI, she calls it something like a 'backburn' or 'afterburn' or something -- long time since I read it -- and describes it as a way to release some of the pain inside her. There's a sense that it's kinda like a fire break, if that makes sense? You create a fire to clear the land that a wildfire might hit. (Why am I describing this to a chick in Texas? Tell me that?)Shar, my dear, I'm very sorry that you're experiencing this sort of pain. I've been struggling less with SuI, more with 'there's just no point in continuing to struggle' which is kinda yucky. Just want to kinda sit back and stop moving, stop trying.
Sending you as many good feelings as I can, on accounta you deserve them.
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