Posted by NikkiT2 on September 13, 2005, at 9:32:44
I know I have been rather quiet around here of late..
Its all down to guilt..
Stupid stupid guilt.
I feel guilty for my current success in life.. guilt for my life working out so fantastically right now.. the feeling that people will think "oh, shes so fine now, she can't understand"..
Its hard to remember my struggles sometimes.. hard to remember the fight.. and hard to remember what words helped me..
I want to be proof that things CAN work out.. but I don't know WHY things have worked out for me!
My new job starts on Thursday.. its scaring me, and I really want to live up to expectations..
Oh so many emotions!!
So just know I am reading, and I am here behind you all, sending you all ove and strength and good good thoughts..
Nikki xxx
poster:NikkiT2
thread:554614
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