Posted by Racer on June 22, 2004, at 17:58:19
In reply to Fiddle-dee-dee » Racer, posted by NikkiT2 on June 22, 2004, at 16:34:40
Too funny -- and I know the feeling that the life you're currently living isn't your own. It is odd, but not necessarily bad. Your story of being on TV is one of those -- yes, I think I can put myself into your skin in the sense of not being able to believe it's really happening to you. (Actually, I think it is that very sense that it's *not* happening to *you* that makes it possible. Hm... Another topic for musing on at some point...)
For some reason, I really can't settle down at all today. It's very distressing, and probably explains why I've posted so much here today -- I'm just not able to settle down to anything else.
Anyway, don't allow yourself to use "weakness" as the excuse for being a different weight than might be closer to some ideal. You know what? The drugs do change your metabolism, and not for the better. And you know what else? If it was just a question of some sort of strength, NO ONE would EVER be anything other than slim and fit. Get that? Now go beat yourself over the head for a while until it sinks in that it's not just some sort of weakness, then come back and read the rest of this, 'K?
Yeah, weight is a terrible issue, made worse by the both the corporate profit thing that makes the least healthy choices the easiest and most convenient, and by that whole "fashion model" thing. Believe me, I could write more than you'd ever want to read on *that* subject. (And for this I truly apologize: I realize how painful it can be to hear the best-meant words about weight from someone with a different problem with it. I wish I could tell it to you in a way that could truly show how much I mean it as caring, and not anything less genuine. I hope I come close.)
Ironically, I'm a pretty good cook -- and most of what I cook really, really well and really, REALLY love to eat is -- shall we say -- Not Waistline Friendly. My family comes from Hungary, and Hungarian food -- as we all know -- is the most delicious food on earth. I also love and crave pasta, and potatoes are my friends. In fact, potatoes are some of my best friends -- from potato bread to potato soup to potato chips to fried potatoes of any sort to just plain mashed potatoes. {{sigh}} (Here's a funny Racer's Mom story for ya: when I was a kid, my mother told me once, as she served the potatoes for dinner, that she had come to a revelatory conclusion as a teenager on a diet: "it's OK to eat potatoes when you're on a diet -- they're good for you and they're not really fattening." In other words, Mom likes potatoes, too...)
About the water, though: long story short, water really is good for you. I never used to drink enough of it, either, but I'm drinking it now. For one thing, I buy bottled water, so it's very convenient and that makes a huge difference. The other thing I did, when I used to take frozen bottles of water to work every day in order to have something cool to drink (working outside, and in very, very hot weather at times), is I'd add a bit of lemon juice to the water before freezing it. It was probably my imagination, but it seemed to cut my thirst a lot better, and it certainly tasted nicer. Now I just drink it plain -- probably a case of not quite having it in me to do more than just grab a bottle out of the fridge...
Thanks for so much interaction today, Nikki. I really needed it, and you're very entertaining. I'm enjoying it a great deal.
(Now for my reality TV story, which isn't nearly as good as yours: dunno if you saw any of Survivor Africa or the Allstars series? The guy with all the tattoos, Lex? There's no way in hell he'd remember me, because I limited my interactions with him a LOT, but I knew him 15 years ago when he was in a band with a buddy of mine. I will never forget him, though, because he was the most physically beautiful man I'd ever seen in my life. He was one of those people whom you absolutely could not take your eyes off of, no matter how embarrassing it might be to be caught staring. The tattoos always bothered me, but honestly -- I had never and have rarely since EVER seen someone as simply, spectacularly, stunningly beautiful as he was at that time. I can't define what changed about him, it hardly seems possible that time alone could be responsible, but he hardly looked like the same person when I tuned in one evening to look at him. Like I said, not nearly as good as yours, but it is a reality tv story of sorts...)
Thanks again, Nikki.
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