Posted by Racer on June 19, 2004, at 11:38:11
In reply to Thank you, Racer, posted by Shar on June 19, 2004, at 11:23:38
But only for that disclaimer that praying for me might do more harm than good. If your rule about "no suicide if there's any chance" is keeping me alive, your prayers are sure to improve things. (Even if I know you're joking, it still bothers me a bit to hear it. Do you know how I feel about you? I only feel that way about people whom I respect and admire -- and those people have their prayers heard and answered. If you're going to live in my world, you're going to live by my rules. They're easy enough to keep. If I like, admire, and respect you, then you deserve it and must do the same for yourself on all possible occasions.)
I'm medicating myself heavily until something changes. I've stayed asleep as much as possible since Wednesday, with mostly Xanax, some Percodan. The MonsterCat is so worried he's hardly bitten me much at all lately. (Although he has bitten me a number of times, mind you, just not as constantly as he generally does.)
I'm awake for a bit this morning, and my husband says we can work a little on a database I've been trying to put together -- I don't think I have anything like the brain power needed right now, and I know that he gives WAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY to much information about anything -- but my aunt is delivering a chair she's reupolstering for us this afternoon, so I'm going to make sure to be asleep by about noon. Thank god for benzos, eh?
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