Posted by shar on June 13, 2004, at 19:32:23
In reply to Re: look back on the yrs on babble(trigger), posted by kellyr. on June 12, 2004, at 16:46:36
KR,
So sorry you are in so much pain. I can relate.Here's part of the deal with me. If one thing that happens could totally turn your situation around, then that is not a good time for suicide.
For example, if (as Noa suggested) you could tweak your meds and feel better, that could change the whole landscape. Or, if terrible financial problems could be solved by getting a job (no matter how bad the outlook for jobs is), then that isn't a good time for suicide either.
Maybe, I don't know, just maybe it would help to think that your horizon MAY shift just enough to make it worthwhile to go on. Now, I know depression can be chemical and not that affected by therapy, but it couldn't hurt to try to give some cognitive structure to your ideation, if possible.
I'm glad you got out of the house. I used to go to the only 24-hour grocery store here (it was big, lots of browsing) when my son was asleep and his dad was at home. Getting out helped, as hard as it was.
I hope you'll feel better. I'm rooting for you!
Shar
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