Posted by Racer on March 13, 2004, at 9:43:40
In reply to Re: Epiphany!, posted by noa on March 13, 2004, at 9:15:21
Yes, I do like "Charlotte's Web," so I guess there's nothing seriously wrong with me! LOL But the real magic books were much more to my taste. "A Wrinkle In Time," "The Egypt Game," "Charlotte Sometimes," "The House At Green Knowe," "Half Magic," "The Court Of The Stone Children," and, of course, all the books with horses. On the other hand, my mother and I used to read to one another when I was little, and those books were often history or capital L literature. Dickens, etc, so I didn't get a whole lot of children's books until I was a little older. So, I'm weird, what can I say.
Thank you both for joining me in my celebration of my own weirdness. I'll stick with my beloved Housman and the Divine Heine, and continue reading "The Great Influenza" for fun, and look forward to reading "Hidden History" and "The Creators," both by Daniel Boorstin. He died recently, at a ripe old age, so I finally grabbed them from my mother's shelves. Mother is the curator of a collection of art, as well as being an artist herself, and he came out once to see her collection while he was still Librarian of Congress. Mother was very impressed with him, and bought many of his books, although I don't think she's read them all. She did talk about him for a long time afterwards, and he was apparently quite impressed by her -- as who wouldn't be? So, I've always had in my mind to read his books, but haven't had the motivation until now.
This revelation, by the way, fits into something else I've been muddling over. I know I've complained that this new therapist is more interested in "Diagnosing" me than in treating me. It's easy for me to fall into worrying about "my diagnosis," for the same reasons I worry about why something like "The Little Prince" doesn't touch me. Must be something profoundly wrong with me, right? Well, just as I can yawn and pass on over "Old Possum's Book Of Practical Cats," and swoon over "A Shropshire Lad," I can admit to being a difficult woman in many ways, and still say that outcome, what we do about it, really does matter more than Officially Sanctioned Diagnosis.
And you know something? In those moments of clarity, I *know* that it's perfectly OK to be difficult for some people, challenging for some people, without having to have some sort of psychological disorder to neaten the edges of character. Personality does not necessarily connote Personality Disorder.
(And, in trying to nail me into a box which simply does not fit me, this therapist is asking me to deny my perceptions and accept what someone else is telling me. Guess what? That's what got me here in the first place. Doing the same things that made me sick to begin with is NOT therapeutic. Can't make me believe it is, when I know that it isn't. If I ever do start to believe it, you'll know that I've finally gone over the edge for good.)
Thank you all for being here when I need you. Peanut Butter M&Ms and books and upolstery fabric shopping and fibers and yarns and fabrics and Alison Moyet on the stereo (well, the mono -- one channel shorted on my receiver...), and my wonderful eFriends here on this board. I guess there is hope I'll get through this. Thank you for holding my hand.
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