Posted by Phil on March 9, 2004, at 7:17:41
In reply to Smart aleck! » Phil, posted by Racer on March 9, 2004, at 3:11:13
When I'm in their waiting room, he sometimes finishes an appt and, as he walks by, I wink.
Racer, Here's an email I sent to a friend. I decided to share it here. It relates to where you and I left off here.
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My brother xxxx, the brain(and memory) of the family, told me about
whippings I would get when I was young. I didn't remember the frequency or
intensity. I guess he told me when I mentioned the PTSD DX.
Evidently, my drunk mother would bend me over bare-assed and start lashing
away w/ my step-fathers' belt of choice. Xxxx, my brother, was a big boy. He told me he
once walked out of the house because he was afraid he was going to deck
momma. I wish he would have.
I asked, 'Bare-assed?' He said that, yes, I was and had whelps from thigh
to back.
I'm sure later that night, I was saving her ass.
I remember whippings but I didn't remember the intensity. Ah, those tender,
loving moments we all forget so easily.Last night, even before your email, I was thinking..'What do I feel or, what
goes through my mind and heart when someone says they love me?'
Hopefully, I can journal on that some today. It was a very provocative
question that never came up to me before.See <pdoc> at 5 today. I read some of XXX'x old posts on Lamictal last
night and will ask her<pdoc> to put me on it if she thinks it best.
I also need her help getting courage to call work.
______________________________________________You are very special to me, Racer. All my love to you.
Phil
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