Posted by Racer on July 9, 2003, at 11:05:17
In reply to Racer, how are you today?, posted by allisonm on July 9, 2003, at 9:46:10
I don't know. I'm alive, but now I'm wishing more and more I had the courage to kill myself. I don't know if that means I've figured out I'm not going to do it, or if it's getting worse and more dangerous. Between the aloneness, the physical pain, the knowing that so many of the things wrong can't be fixed, well, it's not an existence I'm particularly fond of right now. And it seems as if more is going wrong, too. Add to the pain, I think I'm brewing up a case of shingles, too. I'm hoarding Xanax, so that I won't have to stay awake, but I'm so afraid of running out.
Anyway, that's how I am today. How are you?
poster:Racer
thread:240279
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