Posted by Rach on June 25, 2003, at 22:25:55
i've moved house, i don't have a bed, or furniture in general, for that matter. My brother kicked me out early (because he and his girlfriend 'needed space'), and then invited TWO of his friends to share the study for a few weeks. I'm having the cancer operation in a week, and I'm going to have to put my kitty down because she has very developed cancer herself. My nan has just been moved to an aged care facility because she can no longer look after herself. I'm starting a new relationship and that's bringing up all the horrible memories of what the guy did to me a few months back. I have to see this guy every week in my acting class. Last night I had to confront the guy who abused my trust two nights after the other guy, and just swallow his "surprise".
I honestly could go on for another similar paragraph, but who wants to wallow in self pity, hey?
I'm ok, I am surviving and living through this reasonably well (I'm still sleeping, which is completely bizarre, but I am developing faux eating disorder habits and have lost weight). I will get past this crazy time, but it feels like the world has dumped everything on me possible. I mean, I'm 22 and I'm dealing with cancer already??? Give me an effing break!
Love and life to you all,
R xP.S. I am having comp problems since moving, so don't stress if I'm not around. I'm not in any way suicidal, nor do I even want to run away from this. I just want it to be over already, I need a breather!
poster:Rach
thread:237099
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