Posted by noa on January 25, 2003, at 18:15:53
In reply to Re: Update on me... » Racer, posted by kath on January 25, 2003, at 17:29:32
Racer, sorry you are having such a hard time! Hard financial times are rough enough, but even moreso with depression.
Money is one of the things I worry about a lot. It is less severe now that I have paid off my debts and bought a home (after many years of really struggling and getting further and further into debt). I was just lucky that circumstances turned out in a way that allowed me to pay them off. But I still live very close to the line from paycheck to paycheck (therapy and meds being one of my biggest expenses, of course), and I worry about not having any kind of cushion should I lose my job.
Money worries are stressful! So, your depression could be a very normal response to a bad situation. I don't know if this happens to you, but I also get depression and panic ABOUT my depression, and that just makes the whole thing much worse. This happens especially after I've been in remission for a while, which sounds like is the case for you. But I've discovered that after remission (on medication), the new episodes do remit more quickly. I am working with my therapist to not react so panicky to depressed moods, and just to try to be less judgmental toward myself.
I'll be thinking of you. Take care.
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