Posted by Rach on December 27, 2002, at 3:41:38
In reply to Re: Wow! Activity everywhere (memories)-R and G, posted by shar on December 26, 2002, at 21:51:04
I've been doing a lot of reminiscing lately, I'm not sure why. Found my old diaries today from 8yrs old to 15yrs. God, there is this one entry, and you can see the ink smudged from my crying. It's a truly scary entry, severe depression and lots of fear. It's quite odd, too, because I talk about a male in the entry, without naming him. In my head, I know I was talking about a boy I had a MAJOR crush on, but now I think it was really about my Grandpa. It's particularly odd that I never mentioned a name.
Greg & I became great friends because we were going to do a combined effort and create a file on meditation for Dr Bob. Hmm...hey Greg, it's only about, what, 2 years in the making? :)
My Dad has quit his job, but living in a rural area makes it almost impossible for him to find something else. He left the job about 2 months ago.
I'm seeing a couple of friends tonight (back in Melb & away from the seclusion of my parent's place), so I think I'll have a chat to one of them about the 'secrets'. The reason I'm being so wary about spilling it is that there could be really big legal ramifications.
I doubt Dad will sue, although I wish he would, but the company may take him to court, in which case I think he'll counter sue. Yep, I still have the car, its a Toyota Camry. Very confusing business, really!
On the job front, I'm just waiting it out. I have to wait for the First Aid places to open. Then I can get my certificate, in which case I'm qualified to teach aerobics. There's lots of jobs going, and hopefully nobody will read too much into my age. If so, I'll just go out to the smaller gyms in the suburbs that are desperate for teachers!
I know I'm in a better place. I'm med free again (getting close to 6 months, I think), and feel like while all this crap is happening, I can deal with it, and that I will come out the other side unscathed. I know this will soon pass.
I'm thinking of going travelling in the second part of this year, so watch out what you wish for Greg...
xxx Rach
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