Posted by Refractory on November 16, 1999, at 23:17:11
I feel cracked up totally. I have now had major depression for two full years and am only a partial responder to meds. I have been on max doses of Remeron, Zoloft, Wellbutrin SR and Effexor XR for long periods of time. I also tried lithium augmentation which made me worse. I was even in an rTMS clinical trial this year and it didnt help much. Ive had it.
I often wonder what I did to get like this. I mean, before two years ago I was a good guy and liked myself a lot. I still like myself but its like my body has taken a fiesta and wont work normally anymore. The depression wont go away and I am sick of it. Does anybody know of any way to get out of this shit? I cant see living the rest of my life like this. I mean I am basically partially disabled both physically and mentally now. I used to be such a rugged, outdoorsy person and now I feel like I cant do shit anymore hardly.
What did I do to deserve to get like this? God must be pissed at me or something? It is a ridiculous life I lead now.
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