Posted by Dee on August 22, 1999, at 20:17:35
I am today going up to 200 mg Serzone, and coincidentally an old, triggering relationship visited my life, & refuses to leave my head.
I have been walking around by myself for three hours, taking the train home I started crying... All I could think about is that i must survive until I come home to my computer and can just cry out for help! I just don't know how to go on to next second, not to talk about that I will have to be there tomorrow, next month and all my life ... And I just cannot , can not...I am just so tired and I am asking why me! why is it that I have to go through this thing over and over and over and over... I can handle it, I will come out of it but then it will come again and again.
And there is nowhere I can go and nothing I can do and no one I can turn to...
I used to, when things got overwhelming, pack a bag and move to another place... I've moved over sixty times in twenty years, and I am tired of even that... I keep saying to myself that If I stay this time, and follow up with treatment and stuff it wil eventually get better, but today I have no faith in nothing... I feel like I was being eaten alive...
Is there anyone who can help me...
poster:Dee
thread:10516
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19990814/msgs/10516.html