Posted by Daniel on April 7, 1999, at 8:11:09
In reply to Choosing a therapist, posted by Victoria on April 1, 1999, at 14:26:20
> ... and it's best to think of therapy not as a "cure" or even means of "changing" myself, but as a way to get to know myself more deeply, in relation to another person, and to become more fully comfortable being myself. Good luck!
Dear Victoria,
Thank you for sharing your experience with the rest of us.
Let me once again repeat the last part of your post with small changes if you don't mind:
> ... and it's best to think of therapy not as a "cure" or even means of "CHANGING" MYSELF (!!!), but as a way to get to know myself more deeply, in relation to another person, and to BECOME MORE FULLY COMFORTABLE BEING MYSELF.
I think - GOOD FOR YOU! You for sure are at least one step ahead of me: I think that my self-hate is so deeply rooted that I sometimes wish I were a completely different person, I wish I were born someone else! Which of course is not possible, but then I wish to CHANGE MYSELF to become someone else, but then I realize this is not attainable to a GREAT EXTENT either, so as a result I slip into a large sea of despair where I think I'm going to drown soon, I am beginnig to feel as if I was choking... I don't know whether this is just another symptom of my depression state that I am currently going through or something else, I just don't know... But as far as I can remember, I have never felt comfortable with myself - considering that this is just another symptom of depression - I must have been in depression all my life.
OK, I know I'd better discuss this with my therapist (when I find one), but I'm pretty sure that I would be left speechless, unable to formulate clearly my thoughts... so thank you for listening.
Daniel
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