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Posted by Guy on August 18, 2005, at 11:48:51
Afer 9 years of roller-coaster rides, I am finally feeling stable. I crashed 9 years ago after a couple of weeks on oxazypam. When the original presciption ran out, I stopped sleeping and experienced a major nervous system collapse that lasted for years. I have been on every med in town, including ssri's, ap's, benzo's, anti-convulsants, and maoi's. For the past few months I have been taking 30 mg Remeron plus about 1 mg clonazepam. Everything seems very stable...no tolerance and few side effects. I am running every day and feel almost like my old self. For the first time in many years I am feeling really hopeful. Why then, do I want to get off all meds? I just have this deep yearning to be free, to embrace nature, and say F*** Y** to the pharmaceutical industy. I am 51 years old and just can't picture myself on meds for rest of my life. The downside is that every time I try to withdraw from meds, I start experiencing horrible insomnia, agitation and suicidal thoughts. The worst are the panic attacks when I think I can't sleep...it's become a real phobia. Yes I'm stable, but I also feel trapped, and that is making me unhappy on a very deep level.
Posted by Sonya on August 18, 2005, at 12:59:32
In reply to I want to be free, posted by Guy on August 18, 2005, at 11:48:51
Hi Guy,
I've often done the same thing...get fairly stable on a med then want to quit it. For me, it's denial; I can't believe I really need it, that there's really anything wrong with me. I'm close now to being med-free and worried I'm going to need an antidepressant soon because of worsening depression. I'm also phobic about bedtime and insomnia.Wish I could offer some helpful advice, but just know that you're not alone in these feelings.
BTW, I'm also 51.
Peace...Sonya
> Afer 9 years of roller-coaster rides, I am finally feeling stable. I crashed 9 years ago after a couple of weeks on oxazypam. When the original presciption ran out, I stopped sleeping and experienced a major nervous system collapse that lasted for years. I have been on every med in town, including ssri's, ap's, benzo's, anti-convulsants, and maoi's. For the past few months I have been taking 30 mg Remeron plus about 1 mg clonazepam. Everything seems very stable...no tolerance and few side effects. I am running every day and feel almost like my old self. For the first time in many years I am feeling really hopeful. Why then, do I want to get off all meds? I just have this deep yearning to be free, to embrace nature, and say F*** Y** to the pharmaceutical industy. I am 51 years old and just can't picture myself on meds for rest of my life. The downside is that every time I try to withdraw from meds, I start experiencing horrible insomnia, agitation and suicidal thoughts. The worst are the panic attacks when I think I can't sleep...it's become a real phobia. Yes I'm stable, but I also feel trapped, and that is making me unhappy on a very deep level.
Posted by coley on August 19, 2005, at 0:49:41
In reply to I want to be free, posted by Guy on August 18, 2005, at 11:48:51
You mightwant to accept the fact that the meds aren't merely a crutch, but also an aid to your well-being. Talk to your doctor, and see what he says. I think you should pat yourself on the back for getting over so many hurdles, and don't hate yourself for needing the meds. At least you are not the type who would be in denial about needing outside help, and screw up your life, and everyone around you too!!!
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