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Posted by sal0805 on November 8, 2005, at 14:44:44
I think I will just have one more drink.
I'm alone (at home that is) so it is ok not to remember.
I don't remember going to bed with my husband the last 2 nights.
Even if I actually got about 1 hour *uninterrupted* sleep, I kind of know it isn't worth it. That isn't enough for me to stop.
Sad sigh
Sabrina
Posted by antigua on November 8, 2005, at 16:03:07
In reply to I will have to go to bed soon .... but, posted by sal0805 on November 8, 2005, at 14:44:44
wanna talk?
antigua
Posted by sal0805 on November 8, 2005, at 16:31:43
In reply to Re: I will have to go to bed soon .... but » sal0805, posted by antigua on November 8, 2005, at 16:03:07
I would love to - just don't trust my fingers and my unhibited mind right now.
S
Posted by sal0805 on November 8, 2005, at 16:39:27
In reply to Re: I will have to go to bed soon .... but » sal0805, posted by antigua on November 8, 2005, at 16:03:07
My previous post meant for you.
My perfectionist nature also has to repair typo of 'unhibited' to its correct counterpart of lets say - carefree!
Sabrina
Posted by AuntieMel on November 9, 2005, at 10:45:53
In reply to I will have to go to bed soon .... but, posted by sal0805 on November 8, 2005, at 14:44:44
I'm so glad you've come back to the boards. I've missed your cute kid stories.
Can you tell me a bit about where you see yourself in regards to your drinking? Do you think it is a problem? If so, is it something you want to deal with?
Quitting is so dang hard, but it's worth it. It's been 2 yrs, 6 months and 16 days for me (if I count right.) The first going was really difficult, but it gets easier now by leaps and bounds.
Your babble-buddies would like to help you.
Posted by sal0805 on November 9, 2005, at 11:52:54
In reply to Re: I will have to go to bed soon .... but » sal0805, posted by AuntieMel on November 9, 2005, at 10:45:53
Thank you so much AuntieMel.
I have a story - I will just have to share it another time.
For now though, your response to my post really means so much. There are times when babble adds to my loneliness.
Thank you again
Sabrina
(thinking up a cute kid story)
Posted by mama141 on November 10, 2005, at 9:14:41
In reply to Re: I will have to go to bed soon .... but » AuntieMel, posted by sal0805 on November 9, 2005, at 11:52:54
> Thank you so much AuntieMel.
>
> I have a story - I will just have to share it another time.
>
> For now though, your response to my post really means so much. There are times when babble adds to my loneliness.
>
> Thank you again>> Sabrina
> (thinking up a cute kid story)Sabrina,
If you have cute kid stories to tell-- you have just given at least one (maybe more) reason(s) not to take that drink...We all love you and most of us have "been there"...MAMA
Posted by antigua on November 10, 2005, at 9:30:02
In reply to Re: I will have to go to bed soon .... but » antigua, posted by sal0805 on November 8, 2005, at 16:39:27
Posted by sal0805 on November 10, 2005, at 15:49:36
In reply to We're here when you're ready (nm) » sal0805, posted by antigua on November 10, 2005, at 9:30:02
but I have lost my courage for now.
Thank you for responding to my original post.
Sabrina
Posted by mama141 on November 10, 2005, at 20:10:56
In reply to Thanks » antigua, posted by sal0805 on November 10, 2005, at 15:49:36
> but I have lost my courage for now.
>
> Thank you for responding to my original post.
>
> SabrinaSabrina,
I disagree, you have not "lost" your courage -- it's still there, maybe just a bit hidden....Mama
Posted by AuntieMel on November 11, 2005, at 10:39:50
In reply to Thanks » antigua, posted by sal0805 on November 10, 2005, at 15:49:36
I understand.
The idea of quitting is frightening, isn't it? It feels like you're giving up your best friend, your lover, your confidante.
The only way I could convince myself was to finally get it that I <this is me, all people are different> would never get the depression under control while I was drinking. I always kept it in 'reserve' that once I got the underlying depression figured out that I would revisit staying sober.
One day, hour, minute, microsecond at a time.
We're here for you. You can talk about it without making a commitment. Sometimes just expressing how you feel helps things to gel in your own mind.
No judgements from this group.
Posted by AuntieMel on November 11, 2005, at 16:19:19
In reply to Thanks » antigua, posted by sal0805 on November 10, 2005, at 15:49:36
Sabrina, right after I got out of IOP they did an exercise where they wrote a letter to their "drug of choice." Most of them were angry. But this is what I would have written:
---------------
Dearest bottle.
Thank you.
Thank you for being there when I needed you. When I was scared of social settings, you gave me strength. When I was afraid of flying, you gave me courage.
On the days when I felt lonely and empty, you filled me with warmth.
I could always count on you to be there for me when there was no one else. You were my best friend when I had no others. You were my lover, my soulmate. With you I didn't need anyone else.
But, dear, it's time. I've got to find a way to stand on my own two feet. I have to be able to love others, not just you. It's time for me to grow.
So, with deep regret I say goodbye.
Posted by sal0805 on November 14, 2005, at 11:54:11
In reply to Re: My letter » sal0805, posted by AuntieMel on November 11, 2005, at 16:19:19
Oh dear - I remember writing much of the same thing when I gave up smoking 3 times. (So far so good on the 3rd try).
I cannot even contemplate the same about drinking.
How utterly frightening.
You have so much strength!
Sabrina
Posted by maddawgz on November 23, 2005, at 2:54:29
In reply to Re: I will have to go to bed soon .... but » sal0805, posted by AuntieMel on November 9, 2005, at 10:45:53
I went from alchol to methadone dont know how but on e thing led to another!!! I still luv the turps but gets me into to much trouble
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