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Posted by hiddenhurt on November 26, 2016, at 16:11:19
Help me! Oh, help me! Is anyone there?
I need someone's help! It doesn't matter from where!
Even a mouse, or a browning pear,
Or a whisper of mist asleep on the air,
Anyone, anything, anyone there!
For I am--although I'm at home,
And clean and seem fairly well,
With a wife who can love me and children as well--
I am alone and very ill! Ill and alone!
And I suffer for something for which I can't atone!
And only one guest ever knocks on my door,
And his robe is of black and lightless velour,
And I know his black sythe and I know what it's for,
And I know what he'll do if I open my door,
So help me! Oh, help me! If anyone's there!
For despite my good family, my dark heart implores,
To give in to that one and all others ignores,
I don't want to die, but my hands reach out for
To open, to open, to open to that door!
Posted by alexandra_k on November 26, 2016, at 18:58:48
In reply to Help me! Oh, help me! Is anyone there?, posted by hiddenhurt on November 26, 2016, at 16:11:19
hello.
hi.
i'm sorry i've been away...
i'm not sure why i've been away...
i've been feeling very despondent. and i'm not sure why. things are coming together. things have been coming together. things are just at the point where they come together. at which point i'll be able to sit back and go aaaaaaah. well that's done, finally, that's a job well done.
only i'm balking. and i'm not sure why.
are you okay? i'm sorry you are hurting. i'm sorry you can't connect with your family.
have you thought of maybe trying to Do Something With your family?
maybe repairing a motorcycle is not for you. but maybe there is something else. something pleasant that can be done. a walk. maybe where there are ducks. or animals. or something. where the conversation is light and focused on things on the outside. where there is time to... drink in scenery. as though one were on a motorcycle. sometimes doing that with people... can be a good kind of connection. sometimes.
or not. i don't know.
anyway... i'm glad you are still posting here.
Posted by hiddenhurt on November 27, 2016, at 7:52:53
In reply to Re: Help me! Oh, help me! Is anyone there?, posted by alexandra_k on November 26, 2016, at 18:58:48
Thank you for responding. I'm glad that you seem to be finding some improvement in your mood, even if incremental.
I am severely depressed. I'm cutting daily and it's escalating to where I feel unsafe. 3 times I've been hospitalized, most recently in 2009. My cutting now is much worse than ever it was back then. But I don't want to be inpatient and get behind In Everything and leave my family, and then it is such a chore to get back into real life afterwards. I need to heal. I promised myself not to take any more sick days until after winter break, because I was reprimanded at last year's job eval for excesssive absences. I am too scatter-brained and anxious to enjoy family time right now, except seeing a movie (we've seen 3 in 4 days). Just really struggling. So glad that you responded! Bless you.
Posted by alexandra_k on November 27, 2016, at 20:34:23
In reply to Re: Help me! Oh, help me! Is anyone there?, posted by hiddenhurt on November 27, 2016, at 7:52:53
Sorry to hear you are struggling.
I used to cut. Not sure why or how I stopped... But I did. Now I want to say things to try and help... Suggestions of things to do... I'm not sure whether that would be helpful to you or not, though. Sometimes it helps to say things... And for people to just... Bear witness. I'm not sure what is good for you...
Can you cut down your work week? I wonder... I mean, I have a friend who has managed to cut down his work hours so he's only working 4 days per week. That gives him 1 day per week where he can just stay home... Take a long bath. Listen to music he likes. Destress. Heal. I don't know whether that might be possible for you...
Posted by baseball55 on November 28, 2016, at 17:57:49
In reply to Re: Help me! Oh, help me! Is anyone there?, posted by hiddenhurt on November 27, 2016, at 7:52:53
I'm so sorry you are having do much difficulty right now. Do you see a therapist? Can that help? Movies are always a good way to forget oneself for a bit. Take care and keep us posted.
> Thank you for responding. I'm glad that you seem to be finding some improvement in your mood, even if incremental.
>
> I am severely depressed. I'm cutting daily and it's escalating to where I feel unsafe. 3 times I've been hospitalized, most recently in 2009. My cutting now is much worse than ever it was back then. But I don't want to be inpatient and get behind In Everything and leave my family, and then it is such a chore to get back into real life afterwards. I need to heal. I promised myself not to take any more sick days until after winter break, because I was reprimanded at last year's job eval for excesssive absences. I am too scatter-brained and anxious to enjoy family time right now, except seeing a movie (we've seen 3 in 4 days). Just really struggling. So glad that you responded! Bless you.
>
Posted by Hiddenhurt on November 29, 2016, at 11:46:08
In reply to Re: Help me! Oh, help me! Is anyone there? » hiddenhurt, posted by baseball55 on November 28, 2016, at 17:57:49
Thank you for your thoughts. I have received a lot of therapeutic care in the past, but my coping strategies are just overwhelmed at the moment. Yesterday I was evaluated for in-patient hospitalization. Fortunately, they did not think that was necessary, but intensive out-patient treatment is a likely possibility--time of off work and a cut in pay. Fortunately, wife and brother are supportive, although wife is understandably anxious about finances. :(
Posted by baseball55 on November 29, 2016, at 17:45:46
In reply to Re: Help me! Oh, help me! Is anyone there?, posted by Hiddenhurt on November 29, 2016, at 11:46:08
I've done IOPs a few times and found them very helpful. Luckily, I had a job with flexible hours, so I just sort of worked around the IOP. But for most people, losing work (not to mention trying to explain why you'll be out) can be really hard.
> Thank you for your thoughts. I have received a lot of therapeutic care in the past, but my coping strategies are just overwhelmed at the moment. Yesterday I was evaluated for in-patient hospitalization. Fortunately, they did not think that was necessary, but intensive out-patient treatment is a likely possibility--time of off work and a cut in pay. Fortunately, wife and brother are supportive, although wife is understandably anxious about finances. :(
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