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Posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 3:37:06
I'm so freaking angry about the lack of consent thing!
I'm writing up an advance directive right away about not letting any trainee med students/EMTs/nurses etc. touch me. I hate med students the most though. Nurses are generally caring. I'm unsure of whether or not I can request that they not talk to me or look at me. I'll have to ask about that.
I'm also making it clear that I can refuse treatment no matter what. I don't care if I am dying.
I'd rather die than have med students touch me. So I am dying and there is no one but a medical student? I choose death thank you very much!
Oh and any doctor that doesn't respect my wishes can also f*ck off. I'll have to make it clear in my advance directive.
I know the courts uphold advance directions no matter how irrational they may sound and I do realize some of my requests sound a bit irrational. If anyone goes against my directives, they will get into big trouble.
I'm so freaking angry! I hate you!
I must make it crystal clear in my advance directive: I would rather die than have a med student practice on me.
Also no one is allowed to cut me open after I am dead. Not for autopsy or anything.
Posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 5:01:22
In reply to I'm writing up an advance directive, posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 3:37:06
Ahhh! I'm so freaking angry. I've been reading about medical errors and about how doctors won't admit their mistakes or apologize.
I hate you!!!
I can hardly stand this! So angry! I think I hate doctors now. I just hate them. I don't want anything to do with them. Pdoc is OK. She never touches me. She has hurt my feelings though. Actually I am kind of angry at her too. I hate everyone else. (Except Dr. Bob of course but I hate his profession).
I think I might change my advance directive and just forbid any doctor or med student from touching me period. Nurses can touch me. They're generally caring and don't have inflated egos. I'll just have to die if I need any medical treatment in the future. Just give me comfort drugs to help me die.
In advance directive, no doctor or med student may touch me or treat me in any way at any time, no matter if death is imminent, except pdoc.
If I get seriously injured or am suffering, I really have no choice but to kill myself to end the suffering. I don't want doctors treating me. I hope that pdoc would come visit me in my final moments.
I really hope doctors don't just declare me incompetent or something because I know exactly what I want. The very fact that I am writing all this out now while not injured means that this is not a spur of the moment irrational decision. I'm going to carefully plan and consider this and I've decided I hate all doctors and none of them can ever touch me.
Wow, it is late. I should go to bed. I've just been so freaking angry.
Posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 19:22:26
In reply to So freaking angry!, posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 5:01:22
Sorry about my recent rantings. I don't know why I was so angry. Anyways, I don't think I was thinking straight. Just ignore everything I wrote. :/
Sorry if I offended any health professionals out there. I think my black and white thinking got the better of me. Of course not all doctors are evil. Most are well meaning even if they did do bad things. Sigh, I think I went temporarily insane, like I actually "lost" it for a while.
I need to stop researching horror stories about med students and doctors. It makes me very angry. Anyways, I've decided I will let a med student touch me if they are nice, know what they are doing and isn't doing something for the first time. In another life without mental problems, I could have been a med student. They are just people like you or me.
I need to bring my focus back on job hunting.
Posted by Dinah on October 30, 2010, at 11:16:45
In reply to Sorry about my ranting :/, posted by Deneb on October 27, 2010, at 19:22:26
I used to tell my therapist that I didn't store anger with the memories where it would be appropriate. That I stripped the anger from the experiences and stored it in a big "anger" room. Then sometimes when the door of the anger room got cracked open, all the anger that I'd stored burst out of the door with the current anger, and my anger would far exceed the current situation.
I'm not saying there's no reason for being angry with what you describe. Of course there is. But you're also under a great deal of stress. Is it possible that lots of anger got mixed in with it? Especially given that the stress from job hunting might trigger some feelings you may have about being a med student, or something along those lines, yourself?
It would be perfectly understandable, and possibly could be helpful to explore some of that with your therapist, or with some other professional? Are you no longer considered a student? I thought you'd mentioned taking classes this year, so I'm not sure.
Posted by Deneb on October 30, 2010, at 11:57:08
In reply to Re: Sorry about my ranting :/ » Deneb, posted by Dinah on October 30, 2010, at 11:16:45
I'm no longer a student, but I think pdoc can still see me. She hasn't said she wouldn't be able to see me.
Yeah, I was thinking more about that med student thing. It may be possible that I might be somewhat jealous or something, jealous of med students maybe because they got to achieve something I couldn't.
I'm also wondering if maybe I've been traumatized by something but just don't remember it and all this angry comes from my unconscious.
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