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Posted by verne on November 1, 2006, at 6:19:55
I know I'm not terribly likable. I'm really just anti-social.
I don't even like myself, yet I'm still self-centered.
I'm only anti-social in the way the little Italian girl greets the liberating army. I want to reach out but I'm too numb.
I'm tying up loose ends. This will be done by Spring 2009 if I don't sleep myself to death sooner.
I did the world traveler, aspiring writer bit. I was even in the army and came out with an unbelievable "retirement" at 25 years of age. Lived off the Oregon coast for 10 years in a cave, got married, a daughter captured my heart, now she's fled the nest.
I'm done. I'm not a great writer. My daughter disowned me. I'm just hanging on. She lost an aunt on the 110th floor on 9/11 and her best friend in a car wreck a month later.
When I say I'm done, I mean, I'll hang around for a few years - I'm depressed but not immediately suicidal. I'm cleaning house and not in the usual way.
I've carried around Heidegger's "Being and Time" for 30 years. Even read him in German once. No more. I'm boxing up all the Dostovesky, Heidegger, and a truck load of philosphers and theologians.
I guess I'm not completely done because I still hold on to Kafka, Stanislaw Lem, and some other crap. I absolutely fell in love with Kafka. Actually, I'm just about done with Lem, Nietzche, and the rest of them. I've been touched by God, thought I was born again, spricture came alive like a language I had always known but forgotten. I've since wondered about my "conversion".
I guess I'm not a fundamentalist christian because I don't go to church, I'm pro-choice, for gun-control (why aren't handguns just illegal?), and not involved with politics.But I stray. I'm done. I have the luxury to take a few years tying up loose ends. I'm thankful and aware how privleged I am.
Yet my goal is to sell or give away everything I have in the next 2-3 years. I'm done.
I thought I should say something to explain why I'm so anti-social, yet reach out at times.
Don't be alarmed. I'm hanging around for awhile. I'm so neurotic even my suicide takes three years.
verne
Posted by ClearSkies on November 1, 2006, at 8:16:39
In reply to Dead Man Walking, posted by verne on November 1, 2006, at 6:19:55
Yes, a public hug, two-armed yet.
CS
Posted by Phillipa on November 1, 2006, at 9:58:03
In reply to (((Verne))), posted by ClearSkies on November 1, 2006, at 8:16:39
Verne please come out of your cave I bet you're a great writer and going though the empty nest sydrome. I'm still doing that myself wondering what I can contribute to society now that I'm older. Love Phillipa
Posted by verne on November 1, 2006, at 15:38:04
In reply to Re: (((Verne))), posted by Phillipa on November 1, 2006, at 9:58:03
thanks for the encouragement. I was feeling way too sorry for myself last night.
I guess part of my problem is the empty nest syndrome. It doesn't help that we are estranged too.
I won't do anything dramatic until I've been off booze for at least a year. If I can manage that I'll probably have a different, and better, perspective.
v
Posted by TexasChic on November 1, 2006, at 20:11:11
In reply to thanks all, posted by verne on November 1, 2006, at 15:38:04
Posted by Lindenblüte on November 2, 2006, at 14:30:33
In reply to thanks all, posted by verne on November 1, 2006, at 15:38:04
Hey Verne,
sorry you've got no one to hang out with and talk to about kafka and such.you belong to any political organizations? it might be a nice place to meet people who are a little out of the main stream.
Hope you get out of your eddy soon
-Li
Posted by Declan on November 6, 2006, at 22:43:44
In reply to Re: thanks all » verne, posted by Lindenblüte on November 2, 2006, at 14:30:33
Kafka, Neitzche, W.G. Sebald reading group.
Posted by ClearSkies on November 7, 2006, at 0:36:42
In reply to I wanna, posted by Declan on November 6, 2006, at 22:43:44
> Kafka, Neitzche, W.G. Sebald reading group.
Why don't you invite people to start a thread on the Books board.
Posted by Declan on November 7, 2006, at 12:40:06
In reply to Re: I wanna, posted by ClearSkies on November 7, 2006, at 0:36:42
When you search this site for Sebald there are 4 results, 3 from me, the other on Dr Bob's recommendations, though I couldn't see it there. I assume noone has read him. Which is a pity, because in his quiet, tasteful, and indirect way he is talking about pretty severe depression, even though he hardly ever mentions how he is feeling. His main subject is history and the inhumane culture through time, which he often does wrt architecture.
Posted by Lindenblüte on November 7, 2006, at 17:58:00
In reply to Re: I wanna » ClearSkies, posted by Declan on November 7, 2006, at 12:40:06
Declan,
I'm intimidated by complicated reading and/or complicated ideas. The other two authors seem inaccessible to me, however perhaps I could be interested in Sebald. I have never read him (in fact, never heard of him before a few moments ago).Your recommendation goes a long way, and I luv architecture. I have one small problem, though. Currently have $427 dollars (us, not lira) in fines at the library. If I can find a couple of lost sheep, I'll get it down below 50$, but I've searched about 90% of my spaces at this point. damn.
-Li
Posted by Phillipa on November 7, 2006, at 19:05:20
In reply to Re: I wanna » Declan, posted by Lindenblüte on November 7, 2006, at 17:58:00
So give them some of your own books you've already read. How can you get that high of a fine at the library? Must have checked out a thousand books. Love Phillipa
Posted by Lindenblüte on November 7, 2006, at 19:17:15
In reply to Re: I wanna » Lindenblüte, posted by Phillipa on November 7, 2006, at 19:05:20
It's sheet music. I have 3/4 of the string quartet, but the cello part has gone missing. I hope the piece is still in print. Sometimes I have been able to order a single part, and replace it.
...
Posted by Phillipa on November 7, 2006, at 20:51:57
In reply to Re: I wanna » Lindenblüte, posted by Phillipa on November 7, 2006, at 19:05:20
Ouch!!!!Love Phillipa
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