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Posted by jammerlich on July 28, 2006, at 15:34:40
I was with my teacher-friend for several hours today. We had a wonderful time, but now that she's gone all I can do is cry. I don't understand why I feel so bad....why I can't look back on the good experience and hang onto it. It's almost like it never happened. I'm so clingy and self-involved. I just want more, more, more!!
And I don't understand why I have such a hard time opening up with her when I want nothing more than to spill my heart out. I had plenty of opportunities today, but I never took them. Maybe I'm just too picky. I guess I sort of want things to be just right. I don't want to be riding in her car or having a heart-to-heart in public, over lunch. I want her on my sofa where it's quiet and I can snuggle up to her like I'm 5. Because really, deep down, I think I AM just 5. The only thing that's really grown up is this body I'm in.
I suppose it doesn't help that she left here with her son. He gets to go and spend the rest of the weekend with her. I am so jealous of him for that. He gets the lazy time that I want so much. Does that make sense? I want to be with her when she's curled up watching TV or when she's having her first cup of coffee in the morning, or when she's tired and feels like a nap. I guess I want that home sort of experience with her - to experience her that way.
I don't know. I feel like I'm rambling and not making much sense. I'll stop now, even though it feels like I hardly got started.
Posted by Phillipa on July 28, 2006, at 18:23:34
In reply to Why is it?, posted by jammerlich on July 28, 2006, at 15:34:40
Sorry you couldn't have more private time. Love Phillipa
Posted by jammerlich on July 28, 2006, at 20:28:21
In reply to Re: Why is it? » jammerlich, posted by Phillipa on July 28, 2006, at 18:23:34
Thank you, Phillipa, for responding. Somehow it's nice just to know someone read all that. I think maybe being alone just felt much more lonely after being with her.
I really should be tickled pink over the time with her. I got lots of hugs and had lunch with her and her son, and as we were parting ways, she put her arm around me and told her son he needed to understand that I was her daughter. That's really good....right? I did like that quite a lot and it's something very nice to remember.
Sorry for babbling on again. I guess this is all pretty heavy on my mind.
Posted by Phillipa on July 28, 2006, at 21:54:01
In reply to Re: Why is it? » Phillipa, posted by jammerlich on July 28, 2006, at 20:28:21
That's wonderful!!! She considers you a Daughter. Love Phillipa
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