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Posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 9:57:15
Well, I just learned minutes ago that I am the sole recipient of a glorious fellowship that will launch me from having zero dollars to do my dissertation research to a stipend ever so slightly above the poverty line. (An infinite increase)
But. I don't feel the joy. my advisor is beside herself. I feel no excitement whatsoever. what the F*? A year ago, I would be calling everyone I know "guess what? guess what!!!!?" Now, ho hum. another friday. nothing to look forward to...
I think I will email T about this interesting development.
Posted by Racer on May 19, 2006, at 10:39:28
In reply to good news, but not happy?, posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 9:57:15
It's depression.
I go through these periods where I just don't know what's wrong with me, but I don't seem to be able to react appropriately to anything. And I'll bring it up with my therapist -- who'll remind me, "Depression does that..."
I'm sure there's more to it than that, but that's part of it, I'm sure.
Congratulations on your fellowship.
Posted by wildcardII on May 19, 2006, at 10:49:58
In reply to There's a name for that » llrrrpp, posted by Racer on May 19, 2006, at 10:39:28
yes, depression has a way of sucking happiness out of things. congrats to you as you did great ;o)
Posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 11:32:17
In reply to Re: There's a name for that, posted by wildcardII on May 19, 2006, at 10:49:58
If this achievement won't make me happy, maybe nothing will. What's the point?
Posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 11:34:03
In reply to the big D, posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 11:32:17
cancel my request for buttertarts.
Posted by Larry Hoover on May 19, 2006, at 12:01:07
In reply to Re: the big D, posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 11:34:03
> cancel my request for buttertarts.
Now I KNOW that's the depression talking. You have no idea what you're passing up.
Congrats! on the fellowship. Way kewl!
I should airmail ya some tarts as a celebratory gesture.
Lar
Posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 12:22:04
In reply to Re: the big D » llrrrpp, posted by Larry Hoover on May 19, 2006, at 12:01:07
That's sweet Lar
maybe my big project this weekend will be making buttertarts. I'm a good baker. If I *act* better, I might *feel* better? it might get me out of my slump?
well, regardless. eat one for me :|
Requiem for a Buttertart.
bon voyage
Posted by Phillipa on May 19, 2006, at 14:09:12
In reply to Re: There's a name for that, posted by wildcardII on May 19, 2006, at 10:49:58
Yup depression what a bummer. But maybe you will feel it later . Maybe it hasn't sunk in yet. And the best med is a buttertart. Love Phillipa
Posted by wildcardII on May 19, 2006, at 14:42:35
In reply to the big D, posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 11:32:17
well, depression makes everything seem like it will never get better but that is NOT true. with the right treatment for you and support you can feel better. i have went through the worst major episode of depression that started at 23-24 and now 5 years later it is FINALLY getting better. some days are better than others but it's a huge improvement. i once felt like you do now but there is hope....
Posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 15:24:55
In reply to Re: the big D » llrrrpp, posted by wildcardII on May 19, 2006, at 14:42:35
At least I won't be penniless and depressed. I will be penniful and depressed. happy to know the big D can be conquered, or at least subdued.
congratulations to the healed ones. I will wait for those days. now I will go home to distract myself with my first batch of Netficks.
still no buttertarts for me. a reward for self-loathing is no reward at all.
Posted by Declan on May 19, 2006, at 18:49:23
In reply to the big D, posted by llrrrpp on May 19, 2006, at 11:32:17
Look, I think it's fantastic (you don't have too). There's nothing like having enough money to live on. It's an infinite increase and you don't even have to enjoy it.
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