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Posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 14:08:20
Not unhappy - not happy either. Not myself - though I should be.
What is myself anyway?
Don't know who to be or what to feel right now. Burn out??
Tired!!
Worn out from trying to tell myself I AM NOT fat and ugly.
Feeling fat and ugly.
Feeling a failure.
Feeling stupid.
Feeling ... I don't know what I am feeling but it is not right - and it is not "me".
Feeling that I never get anything right. Even when I see that I have.
Feeling a failure! And absolute total and definite failure. A fat and ugly failure!
So go on and scream, scream at me .. I'm so far away - I won't be broken again. I've got to breathe - I CAN'T KEEP GOING UNDER.
Sabrina
Posted by ClearSkies on March 8, 2006, at 15:13:46
In reply to Not myself! Trigger!, posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 14:08:20
Posted by AuntieMel on March 8, 2006, at 15:23:44
In reply to Not myself! Trigger!, posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 14:08:20
Ditto!
What is that feeling of just 'being' without 'being' anything?
It's why I keep seeing my doc, that's for sure.
Sorry you're having a bad time - it bites, I know.
Maybe your son will do something extra cute today.
Posted by Damos on March 8, 2006, at 15:54:10
In reply to Not myself! Trigger!, posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 14:08:20
YAY!!!!! It's Sabrina, woo hoo.
Sorry you're feeling like this.
If you're tired of saying it let me. YOU ARE SO NOT THOSE THINGS!!!! (virtual scream). See I can't even use them in a sentence about you! Same goes for the other two too. You are just so not. But I also know how it can be to believe that sometimes.
If you're anything like me (most people come to think of it) you'll sift through everything to find evidence to support the underlying beliefs about yourself (however faulty they might be). Some of them might not even be our own, but have been given to us. Core beliefs and paradigms are where the power lies, a small shift here can result in major changes in all areas of your life.
If you feel you're going under reach out, reach up and we'll be there.
(((((Sabrina)))))
Posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 16:45:41
In reply to Re: Not myself! Trigger!, posted by AuntieMel on March 8, 2006, at 15:23:44
Of course I would have your understanding. And yes .... that beautiful and belligerent son of mine has made so much worthwhile. He was supposed to be asleep last night - instead he and I landed up in a fit of giggles that got us both in trouble!! And every time we tried to say goodnight and looked at each other, we would laugh that the tears ran!!!
Thank you for taking me back to that laugh and for understanding!!!
Posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 16:46:23
In reply to (((Sabrina))) (nm), posted by ClearSkies on March 8, 2006, at 15:13:46
Thanks my friend!!
Posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 16:48:42
In reply to Re: Not myself! Trigger! » Sabrina0805, posted by Damos on March 8, 2006, at 15:54:10
As always - the most awesome wisdom.
Oh - and I LOVED the virtual scream. Thanks - that made my night!!!
We will talk more, I am sure!
Sabrina
Posted by JenStar on March 8, 2006, at 17:51:40
In reply to Not myself! Trigger!, posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 14:08:20
you're not fat or ugly. You're a lovely, beautiful person, inside and out. :)
You're not stupid. You're witty and clever.
And you're valued here. :)
JenStar
Posted by Poet on March 8, 2006, at 18:45:47
In reply to Not myself! Trigger!, posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 14:08:20
Hi Sabrina,
For a second I thought that I managed to post under your name. You've stolen my fat,ugly, stupid, failure rant right out of my head. What's funny is I didn't even know it was missing as I know I said it today.
As people keep reminding me, I am none of those things despite what my brain says. You are none of those things either.
Poet
Posted by Phillipa on March 8, 2006, at 19:00:58
In reply to Re: Not myself! Trigger! » Sabrina0805, posted by Poet on March 8, 2006, at 18:45:47
Sabrina although I don't know you personally I know you are a wonderful person and mother. Love Phillipa
Posted by Tanzanite on March 8, 2006, at 19:14:17
In reply to Not myself! Trigger!, posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 14:08:20
You were one of the one's who was so kind to me, and even after searching the archives realized you were worried about me when I was no longer on the board. I am sorry to see you hurting so much. When we get to a point where we feel there is nothing we can do, and are self loathing or whatever it may be it can be pure hell. Getting it out is a start. Please, keep telling yourself that you can fight this and get through this and that you will not go under. You are an awesome person, and you will be in my thoughts and prayers. If you can, talk to someone about this, whether it be a friend, therapist. You are not a failure. You are not a nobody. I feel like this, but then I have to remember that it is not true. I hope you will be all right and remember that others here care about you.
Chelle
Posted by verne on March 8, 2006, at 23:01:40
In reply to Not myself! Trigger!, posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 14:08:20
You really do matter. Forget your perspective, forget other perspectives - what they say and what they're telling you.
You are absolutely good and beautiful.
verne
Posted by Sabrina0805 on March 8, 2006, at 23:41:45
In reply to Re: Not myself! Trigger!, posted by verne on March 8, 2006, at 23:01:40
Thank you everyone, for your wonderfully kind and supportive words.
Today - I'm just a blob. But at least it is today!
Sabrina
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