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Posted by Deneb on December 18, 2005, at 22:51:55
I'm so behind in life, it's hopeless for me. My sister is successful, I'm not.
I just want to die so bad.
I don't want to live anymore. My life is a failure. I'm sucking the life out of everyone.
Maybe my next life will be better.
I just have to overcome the survival instinct.
I hate my life.
I want to be dead. I hate my life.
Sorry about people getting to know me and stuff.
I hope to be dead before my next semester starts.
Posted by Deneb on December 18, 2005, at 23:01:45
In reply to Sigh, I want to die again, posted by Deneb on December 18, 2005, at 22:51:55
Larry was right, I'm not quite right again.
I don't know how I can be so blind.
I really really thought I was better than OK.
Maybe tomorrow I will be cheerful again.
It feels so horrible, I want to die.
I don't even care about the Toronto trip right now. I want to be dead.
Posted by LegWarmers on December 18, 2005, at 23:10:41
In reply to Sigh, I want to die again, posted by Deneb on December 18, 2005, at 22:51:55
> I'm so behind in life, it's hopeless for me. My sister is successful, I'm not.
>really not helpful to yourself to compare
> I just want to die so bad.
>
I think I see a trend in your posts, is what you are really saying "I just wish I was in a better place?" instead of I wish I would die?> I don't want to live anymore. My life is a failure. I'm sucking the life out of everyone.
you dont want to live anymore? or you dont want to be feeling the way you feel? Who are you sucking the life out of?
>
> Maybe my next life will be better.Maybe so will this one, just give yourself a little time.
>
> I just have to overcome the survival instinct.
>you think? I think you enjoy life at times, it sounds like it anyway.
> I hate my life.
right now or always?
> I want to be dead. I hate my life.
>
> Sorry about people getting to know me and stuff.
>
> I hope to be dead before my next semester starts.
>Have you ever thoguth of taking a leave of absence from school and getting a job? School seems really stressful, maybe it isnt the right time? Maybe you could take a break and go back or maybe you could do part time and work parttime?
Will you be seeing a pdoc soon?
Posted by spriggy on December 19, 2005, at 0:46:32
In reply to Re: Sigh, I want to die again » Deneb, posted by LegWarmers on December 18, 2005, at 23:10:41
Posted by alexandra_k2 on December 19, 2005, at 1:00:48
In reply to Re: Sigh, I want to die again *trigger*, posted by Deneb on December 18, 2005, at 23:01:45
> Larry was right, I'm not quite right again.
> I don't know how I can be so blind.
I can be sometimes too.
You need to tell p-doc2 about how you are feeling since you had your medication altered. I think you were doing much better when you were taking it. Maybe he will notice the same?
I don't think you have felt like this for a while now.Sometimes things get really bad for me and there is nothing to be done but to ride it through. It usually passes in a couple of days.
But it can be the hardest thing in the world to remember that...
Posted by fallsfall on December 19, 2005, at 7:57:52
In reply to Sigh, I want to die again, posted by Deneb on December 18, 2005, at 22:51:55
Please call your pdoc and get your meds straightened out. I wish that you could get into therapy. I think that it would help.
Posted by Phillipa on December 19, 2005, at 18:56:50
In reply to Re: Sigh, I want to die again *trigger* » Deneb, posted by alexandra_k2 on December 19, 2005, at 1:00:48
I second that! Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by Emily Elizabeth on December 20, 2005, at 1:08:13
In reply to Re: Sigh, I want to die again *trigger* » alexandra_k2, posted by Phillipa on December 19, 2005, at 18:56:50
Posted by Deneb on December 21, 2005, at 0:28:12
In reply to Re: Sigh, I want to die again » Deneb, posted by LegWarmers on December 18, 2005, at 23:10:41
> I think I see a trend in your posts, is what you are really saying "I just wish I was in a better place?" instead of I wish I would die?
Yes
> Who are you sucking the life out of?
My family
> I think you enjoy life at times, it sounds like it anyway.I do.
> Have you ever thoguth of taking a leave of absence from school and getting a job? School seems really stressful, maybe it isnt the right time? Maybe you could take a break and go back or maybe you could do part time and work parttime?That is a good idea. I think it would make me feel better, knowing that I wasn't totally reliant on my parents. I have to finish school though, or else I will feel like a failure. I can't believe I used to do well in school. I don't know what happened to me.
>
> Will you be seeing a pdoc soon?Not until Jan 30th.
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on December 21, 2005, at 0:29:05
In reply to I am praying for you Deneb.. Hugs.. (nm), posted by spriggy on December 19, 2005, at 0:46:32
Thank-you for your prayers. It means a lot to me that someone would pray for me. It makes me feel better.
Deneb
Posted by lynn971 on December 21, 2005, at 21:32:30
In reply to Re: I am praying for you Deneb.. Hugs.. » spriggy, posted by Deneb on December 21, 2005, at 0:29:05
I am praying for you too. Sometimes I'll be washing dishes are driving in my car and I will think about you and pray.
Deneb, my sister is a dentist and my brother-in- is a songwriter in Nashville. I cannot compare myself to them. I know that I am right where God wants me. I teach precious young people. You are so young yet. Dont be so hard on yourself.
Luv ya,
Lynn
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