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Posted by TexasChic on October 22, 2005, at 16:23:57
I'm already feeling the anxiety! It'll probably be much more boring than all the senerios that are going round and round in my head. But cute boy is going to be there! I'm still getting mixed messages from him too. I don't know how to explain the looks I get from him sometimes. Kinda like there's a secret between us or something. Of course, since nothings ever been verbalized (is that a word?), it could all be wishful thinking. Which is what's driving me crazy! If he shows up with a chic I'll be so sad!
But cute boy aside, tonight is kind of a big deal because its a big step for me in trying to not be so introverted. I even bought a new outfit yesterday - who needs groceries anyway? Alot of my clothes are kind of tight on me because of the weight I gained after I quit smoking, so I'll be alot more comfortable with clothes that fit right. Plus, tight clothing only emphasizes the fat! Oh, and I'm showing a little cleavage, which is my best asset.
I'm trying really hard not to slip into the self loathing mode. You know, the whole 'how could any guy possibly be interested in me? I'm so fat!'. I'm trying to convince myself I'm attractive 'as is'. I know some guys still find me attractive, its just never the right ones. It'll mean alot to me if I get some attention of the male persuasion tonight.
Guys in general aside, it'll be nice to socialize and feel liked (with all the bad luck I've had with female friends lately). Which is how this group usually makes me feel.
Oh well, wish me luck! I'm off to take a bubble bath and try to relaxe a litte.
-T
Posted by ClearSkies on October 22, 2005, at 19:54:02
In reply to Party tonight!, posted by TexasChic on October 22, 2005, at 16:23:57
I hope you have a great time meeting people! We know you as a funny, smart woman, so I'm sure they'll find her too.
You must kiss and tell, though.
Posted by Angela2 on October 22, 2005, at 21:20:38
In reply to Party tonight!, posted by TexasChic on October 22, 2005, at 16:23:57
I persoanlly have always felt that attraction is not about how 'attractive' you are but about feromones and psychicness. People are just drawn to certain people. But that aside, I bet you look so damn sexy in your new outfit. Good luck tonight.
Posted by Phillipa on October 22, 2005, at 21:34:19
In reply to Re: Party tonight!, posted by Angela2 on October 22, 2005, at 21:20:38
Have fun tonight. Can I come too? Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by TexasChic on October 23, 2005, at 19:49:23
In reply to Re: Party tonight!, posted by Phillipa on October 22, 2005, at 21:34:19
It was alot of fun. No hooking up, but I laughed pratically all night long. This group likes nothing better than to crack each other up.
I hung out with cute boy all night, but I think I'm finally ready to let that whole fantasy go. This other guy at the party was talking about a girl at work he liked and cute boy said, for the second time in my presence, that dating someone at work is a 'really' bad idea. So I realized I 'really' just need to forget about the whole thing and move on. I still feel like there may be something between us, but he obviously will never act on it while we're working together. So I decided I could live with that senerio. The whole not knowing if something was going to happen or not is what kept me hanging on.
On another note, the other guy I talked about that's married, told me last night they're getting divorced (and have been separated for a year). Its weird, I don't necessarily find him physically attractive, but I definitely feel an attraction, kind of like Angela2 was describing with the pheromones and everything. He's always acted interested in me, so maybe that's a direction to think about. He's also one of the really funny ones, which for me is always a big plus.
Anyway, all in all it was a good night, and a good first step to getting back in the social game. I just need to learn how not to get totally obsessed with a guy and just let things happen as they happen, and take it from there. Thanks for all the well wishes everyone!
-T
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