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Posted by Angel Girl on July 6, 2002, at 20:56:55
I can't do this anymore.
Angel Girl
Posted by Yankee Willow on July 6, 2002, at 22:18:14
In reply to Somebody PLEASE help me!!!, posted by Angel Girl on July 6, 2002, at 20:56:55
How can we help Angel?
Kiddo & Willow (she's at my house)
Posted by Angel Girl on July 6, 2002, at 23:35:58
In reply to Re: Somebody PLEASE help me!!!, posted by Yankee Willow on July 6, 2002, at 22:18:14
> How can we help Angel?
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> Kiddo & Willow (she's at my house)
Hi Kiddo and Willow
I wish I had a friend like you two do with each other. Mine keep leaving me. Another one did tonight. I must be such a horrible person. I really don't fit in anywhere. Everybody eventually leaves me. I feel soooo alone.Angel Girl
Posted by tina on July 7, 2002, at 0:08:21
In reply to Re: Somebody PLEASE help me!!!, posted by Angel Girl on July 6, 2002, at 23:35:58
I know how you feel Angel. I feel alone too. If people can't be around you then THEY don't deserve to be. I know this illness does it's best to make us feel unworthy but we are not. We deserve friends who care even when we are not at our best. It's what we give them so we should get the same in return and if you don't, this person wasn't worth your time, effort or spirit.
You're never alone.
I'm thinkin about ya.
tina
Posted by shar on July 7, 2002, at 2:33:44
In reply to Somebody PLEASE help me!!!, posted by Angel Girl on July 6, 2002, at 20:56:55
AG,
Mas despacio, por favor! Slowly, slowly. You are panicky, and need to not give yourself over to that. All your pain and fear and depression and sorrow have built up to almost overwhelm you. You have to figure out a way to get through this day, and one more day.I know you've had a horrible time and crappy pdocs, and the wrong meds, but at the moment, you gotta hold on. You've done it before, and you can do it again. Keep posting, write anything you want, and hold on.
I'm saying this out of concern for you, not as a correction or to get in your face. I guess I'm scared you will lose hope, and I don't want you to! Keep writing.
Shar
Posted by Phil on July 7, 2002, at 9:18:15
In reply to Somebody PLEASE help me!!!, posted by Angel Girl on July 6, 2002, at 20:56:55
Angel Girl,
If your best friend or favorite person was going through exactly what you are going through, what advice would you give them? What do you think they would need to do?
Love is a verb, an action, not a feeling.Anyone is capable of giving love. If someone doesn't love you back that's their choice. Try to become the person you would like to meet. Write down the characteristics, in detail, of what kind of person you would like for a friend or a lover.
Maybe the people you lost weren't such good friends after all.Don't fall into the victim trap thinking everyone in the world has the answers but you don't. Have you spoken to your friend you just lost and how do you know you lost them? If you want them as a friend, tell them. Better yet, tell them to forget last night and invite them to lunch or a movie.
You do have some control over your life. You can make choices and you can get better.
If you feel suicidal, call 911. Be an advocate for yourself and be totally accountable for your actions. There ain't no shortcuts and there ain't no magic words that anybody can tell you.
Even in the gloomiest depression, keep a resevoir of hope.
Posted by Lini on July 7, 2002, at 13:56:52
In reply to Re: Somebody PLEASE help me!!! » Angel Girl, posted by Phil on July 7, 2002, at 9:18:15
Phil hit most of it on the head. I have come here typing and crying, and logged on when I've been dissapointed (mild term) by people's ability to love me. I am working hard on being me, sounds silly, but it's a lot of swimming and sometimes I get caught in the deep end too. It feels awful, but everytime, I have learned something so I take a small (very small!) comfort in knowing that if it is difficult, than I am probably learning something. . . The only thing that helps for me is movement, anything that takes up my time and keep me in the moment. Exercising, this board, math problems, movies, I have found that ANYTHING I let myself get into alleviates the incredible pain that personal journeys entail for a few hours atleast. You can't do everything at once, so just be nice to yourself and know that you're moving forward, even if its in centimeters at the moment. Come here to get the cheerleading you need at any time!
All the best,
-L
Posted by Angel Girl on July 7, 2002, at 19:03:49
In reply to Re: Somebody PLEASE help me!!!, posted by Lini on July 7, 2002, at 13:56:52
Kiddo, Willow, tina, shar, Phil, Lina
I'm feeling better today. I was sitting right on the edge last night. I was scared I was going to kill myself last night. I took a few Xanax to get me through it, to calm me down. If I didn't have them I wouldn't be here today. I almost went to the ER. Thank you all for your help last night. I almost didn't make it. It's scary how close you can get sometimes. I think if I can ever get on the right medication, I will be doing better. God, at least I can only hope. I'm still looking for a pdoc who will be willing to take me on. Sometimes I just feel so very, very hopeless.
Thanks again for helping me through last night. It helped to know there were people out there that cared. <hugs>
Angel Girl
Posted by kiddo on July 7, 2002, at 21:02:15
In reply to Re: Somebody PLEASE help me!!!, posted by Angel Girl on July 7, 2002, at 19:03:49
Hi Angel
Sorry we didn't get back to you last night, it's been kinda wild here. I'm glad you made it through last nights crisis and still holding on.
I've only had three hours sleep last night, but I wanted to let you know we're thinking of you and I will check in again tomorrow....
Nite-Kiddo
Posted by kiddo on July 8, 2002, at 22:18:48
In reply to Somebody PLEASE help me!!!, posted by Angel Girl on July 6, 2002, at 20:56:55
Hi Angel-
I just wanted to check in, say hello and see how you are doing....
I could mirror your post, and feel exactly the same as you do, but I'm still here, so you have to be as well!
Let me know how you are please, and give me a shout if you need anything.
Kiddo
Posted by Angel Girl on July 8, 2002, at 23:44:34
In reply to Re: Somebody PLEASE help me!!!, posted by kiddo on July 8, 2002, at 22:18:48
kiddo
Thanks for checking in with me. Yea, I'm still here, still not sure I really want to be. I guess I still have some hope that some miracle will happen and there is more to life than the black hole.
I hope you're doing better than me and thanks again for asking.
Angel Girl
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