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Posted by susan C on September 1, 2001, at 14:35:54
I wish i could find a set of meds or something that would even out my moods, not dull them on one side and evaporate them on the other
I wish I could go through one month with out going to a doctor
I wish I was fabulously wealthy and could travel everywhere and never had to worry about anything
I wish my body was in shape with out having to work on it
I wish I had someone to tell me what to do.
I wish people would stop telling me what to do.
Mouse in turmoil
Posted by dreamer on September 1, 2001, at 15:02:35
In reply to Another Rant sequence: I WISH, posted by susan C on September 1, 2001, at 14:35:54
Hey, you're a talented mouse !
Think today is one of those crappy days for me too.
Slept for 16hrs yesterday/todaydreamer a little sad :-(
Hope to be ;-) if I can wake up.
Posted by Phil on September 1, 2001, at 15:14:31
In reply to Another Rant sequence: I WISH, posted by susan C on September 1, 2001, at 14:35:54
Well we're never gonna survive
Unless we get a little crazy.Well, I guess we'll survive, at least.
Phil in the Saturday Nap Zone
Posted by Kristi on September 1, 2001, at 18:52:56
In reply to Another Rant sequence: I WISH, posted by susan C on September 1, 2001, at 14:35:54
> I wish i could find a set of meds or something that would even out my moods, not dull them on one side and evaporate them on the other
I can't relate to that one
> I wish I could go through one month with out going to a doctorI wish I can go through one week without going to a doctor
> I wish I was fabulously wealthy and could travel everywhere and never had to worry about anythingMe too
> I wish my body was in shape with out having to work on it
Me too
> I wish I had someone to tell me what to do.Me too
> I wish people would stop telling me what to do.
>
> Mouse in turmoil
Mice are so cute. I'm not trying to minimize how your feeling, just trying to let you know you aren't alone. I really can't help but think life is just a big joke. Wanna know how desperate I am? I have a cd of thunder and rain on... and some aroma insense going... just trying to relax enough to stop shaking. Not working so good.Hang in there.... I get so much encouragement from this particular mouse.
Posted by susan C on September 1, 2001, at 19:27:21
In reply to Re susan, posted by Kristi on September 1, 2001, at 18:52:56
Thank you, all.
This morning, yesterday, was a tough cookie, you know one you find in the closet that has been there in the open package for months at the back of the pantry and you are desperate for a cookie and even a stale chewwy tough one will be ok, but you bite into it, and it is awful.
I once found a box in my closet where I had squirreled away some left over halloween candy in it, a Hersheys bar to be exact...it was spring, so it had been a long time. It was definately NOT fresh.
I am feeling better this afternoon, no small bit to the bites of cheese you left out for this little mouse.
I have asthma, so no incense for me, but I would like being in the middle of a storm right now...turn up the volume, Kristi, so I can hear it.
Mouse with a full tummy
Posted by Krazy Kat on September 1, 2001, at 19:31:20
In reply to Re susan, posted by Kristi on September 1, 2001, at 18:52:56
MM..mmm, yes, I often wish my days were set out for me, but heaven forbid anyone tell me what to do. I think I rebel more now than I did when I was a teenager. I'm going to be a crotchety old lady. Maybe you will be, too. :)
Keppra's not working well, yet?
There's a line in The Noonday Demon:
"If you can knock out your [manic] depression, you can live in wonderful peace with the real-world problems you may have to confront, which always seem minimal by comparison."
That is awfully dramatic, but sometimes it seems that way...
And, dreamer, isn't it awful to sleep so much? Is it because of your med change? I am so tired of sleeping, or, as of late, wanting to sleep, but never "really" sleeping. You'll have to learn to sleep with your eyes open so you look more engaged... ;)
Posted by Kristi on September 1, 2001, at 20:17:55
In reply to Thank you everyone, Mighty Mouse is up and at 'em , posted by susan C on September 1, 2001, at 19:27:21
> Thank you, all.
>
> This morning, yesterday, was a tough cookie, you know one you find in the closet that has been there in the open package for months at the back of the pantry and you are desperate for a cookie and even a stale chewwy tough one will be ok, but you bite into it, and it is awful.
>
> I once found a box in my closet where I had squirreled away some left over halloween candy in it, a Hersheys bar to be exact...it was spring, so it had been a long time. It was definately NOT fresh.
>
> I am feeling better this afternoon, no small bit to the bites of cheese you left out for this little mouse.
>
> I have asthma, so no incense for me, but I would like being in the middle of a storm right now...turn up the volume, Kristi, so I can hear it.We don't have lightning rods here in the desert... so I'm afraid to turn it up....but, but, just have someone yell rumble really loud in your house everynow and then. Hang in there kiddo.
> Mouse with a full tummy
Posted by susan C on September 1, 2001, at 21:11:21
In reply to Tumultuous mouse and Sleepy-head dreamer, posted by Krazy Kat on September 1, 2001, at 19:31:20
>I'm going to be a crotchety old lady. Maybe you will be, too. :)
WILL BE, I AM !!!!
It is new for me be cause I have always been a good girl.
>
> Keppra's not working well, yet?Thanks for asking, I am checking my calendar, Next Saturday I am up to maximum dose, and am not sure. Is that a no? knock knock, ANYBODY HOOOOME???? (back to the future). I will look at this book The Noonday Demon:
>
> "If you can knock out your [manic] depression, you can live in wonderful peace with the real-world problems you may have to confront, which always seem minimal by comparison."That is what the 'world expert' said when he gave me his opinion and recommended depakote and cbt and lamitical for depression, because he said the next six months would be very bad, and that I neeeded to go off serzone. It was I did and depakote kind of helps and lamitical I had already tried and the 'world expert' didnt know about the swollen gland risk thingie. I was also going off of serzone slowly, and it was 'ery 'ad.
>
> That is awfully dramatic, but sometimes it seems that way...
>
> And, dreamer, isn't it awful to sleep so much? Is it because of your med change? I am so tired of sleeping, or, as of late, wanting to sleep, but never "really" sleeping. You'll have to learn to sleep with your eyes open so you look more engaged... ;)What are we all on, is this the same thing happening to all of us at the same time?
mouse under foot
Posted by sar on September 2, 2001, at 1:01:06
In reply to Mouse under foot, posted by susan C on September 1, 2001, at 21:11:21
dear mouse,
how does depakote make you feel? i'm trying to gather as many feelings on it as i can.
your wishes make so much sense...
drama drama drama...why not indulge in it from time to time? drunk singing, laughing screaming...where i used to live, we had a "recycling" program that involved sitting on the roof of a 3-story house and throwing glass beer bottles down into the street to hear the SMASH (curses on me, i know, i hope no one got a flat, but at 3 am nihilism it makes sense)
i wish i had a closet of vases to throw.
i wish i were really deeply in love, safely.
i wish i were drinking merlot instead of tallboys.
reminds me of that song by skee-lo from like '95..."i wish i were a little bit taller, i wish i were a baller, wish i had a rabbit in a hat blah blah blah..."
i wish i may i wish i might wish on the first star i notice tonight, as i fend off the roly polies on the damp porch...
better to be crotchety and fiesty than wilting...
i can't wait to be a feisty old lady. but i'll try to do it in the funny southern way.
why do you call yourself mouse, mouse?
sar
Posted by susan C on September 2, 2001, at 13:15:32
In reply to Re: Mouse under foot » susan C, posted by sar on September 2, 2001, at 1:01:06
> dear mouse,
>
> how does depakote make you feel? i'm trying to gather as many feelings on it as i can.I have tried many things, It lowered my frantic highs in the first month, but i didn't notice a difference between 1000 and 1500, so I dropped to 1000 (lowish dose). My blood level is between 50 and 60 low end, my protein binding is low my free level is high so my body is getting rid of it quickly. It is the only thing that has helped in a long time, but is not the magic bullet, I lost hairs for the first six months, and now my short hair is coming back curlier...I still loose hair, but not as much. I have thick hair. I take multi with selium and zinc as per dr dash bobs tips post and as Mark Twain says, why not might help cant hurt. I felt detached, distant. I would much rather that than the manic. I had a break through manic which scared me, and I say now I would much rather be this detatched way and stay at home than cycling.
What is going on with the addition of Keppra is another pussle.
>
> your wishes make so much sense...Thank you for responding
>
> drama drama drama...why not indulge in it from time to time? drunk singing, laughing screaming...where i used to live, we had a "recycling" program that involved sitting on the roof of a 3-story house and throwing glass beer bottles down into the street to hear the SMASH (curses on me, i know, i hope no one got a flat, but at 3 am nihilism it makes sense)
>
> i wish i had a closet of vases to throw.
>
> i wish i were really deeply in love, safely.
>
> i wish i were drinking merlot instead of tallboys.I dont drink, always been seitive to it, with Depakote it is NONONONONo, as you can die. So people it doesnt appear to affect
>
> reminds me of that song by skee-lo from like '95..."i wish i were a little bit taller, i wish i were a baller, wish i had a rabbit in a hat blah blah blah..."
>
> i wish i may i wish i might wish on the first star i notice tonight, as i fend off the roly polies on the damp porch...
>
> better to be crotchety and fiesty than wilting...
>
> i can't wait to be a feisty old lady. but i'll try to do it in the funny southern way.With a Mint Juelip?
>
> why do you call yourself mouse, mouse?'Here I come to save the day, Mighty Mouse is on the Way!'and Andy Kaufman's immitation
my favorite cartoon as a kid, He is small (I am tall) he is brave (I am shy, except sometimes I am bigger than life) he is strong (I am weak) he has a big chest, so do I, I am going to offer some to Kristi.
Susan C
>
> sar
Posted by Kristi on September 2, 2001, at 13:49:39
In reply to Re: Mouse under foot, posted by susan C on September 2, 2001, at 13:15:32
Thank you dear, for the chest offer. You know... You made me laugh a little too early this morning. It hurts when I laugh.
> > dear mouse,
> >
> > how does depakote make you feel? i'm trying to gather as many feelings on it as i can.
>
> I have tried many things, It lowered my frantic highs in the first month, but i didn't notice a difference between 1000 and 1500, so I dropped to 1000 (lowish dose). My blood level is between 50 and 60 low end, my protein binding is low my free level is high so my body is getting rid of it quickly. It is the only thing that has helped in a long time, but is not the magic bullet, I lost hairs for the first six months, and now my short hair is coming back curlier...I still loose hair, but not as much. I have thick hair. I take multi with selium and zinc as per dr dash bobs tips post and as Mark Twain says, why not might help cant hurt. I felt detached, distant. I would much rather that than the manic. I had a break through manic which scared me, and I say now I would much rather be this detatched way and stay at home than cycling.
>
> What is going on with the addition of Keppra is another pussle.
> >
> > your wishes make so much sense...
>
> Thank you for responding
>
> >
> > drama drama drama...why not indulge in it from time to time? drunk singing, laughing screaming...where i used to live, we had a "recycling" program that involved sitting on the roof of a 3-story house and throwing glass beer bottles down into the street to hear the SMASH (curses on me, i know, i hope no one got a flat, but at 3 am nihilism it makes sense)
> >
> > i wish i had a closet of vases to throw.
> >
> > i wish i were really deeply in love, safely.
> >
> > i wish i were drinking merlot instead of tallboys.
>
> I dont drink, always been seitive to it, with Depakote it is NONONONONo, as you can die. So people it doesnt appear to affect
> >
> > reminds me of that song by skee-lo from like '95..."i wish i were a little bit taller, i wish i were a baller, wish i had a rabbit in a hat blah blah blah..."
> >
> > i wish i may i wish i might wish on the first star i notice tonight, as i fend off the roly polies on the damp porch...
> >
> > better to be crotchety and fiesty than wilting...
> >
> > i can't wait to be a feisty old lady. but i'll try to do it in the funny southern way.
>
> With a Mint Juelip?
>
> >
> > why do you call yourself mouse, mouse?
>
> 'Here I come to save the day, Mighty Mouse is on the Way!'and Andy Kaufman's immitation
>
> my favorite cartoon as a kid, He is small (I am tall) he is brave (I am shy, except sometimes I am bigger than life) he is strong (I am weak) he has a big chest, so do I, I am going to offer some to Kristi.
>
> Susan C
> >
> > sar
Posted by Greg A. on September 4, 2001, at 18:15:10
In reply to Another Rant sequence: I WISH, posted by susan C on September 1, 2001, at 14:35:54
Susan,
I wish I looked forward to tomorrow
I wish the furthest thing from my consciousness was how I felt
Since GOD messed up on my brain chemistry, I wish he’d remembered to leave someone the correct recipe.
I wish I could sit down in the evening, look at the sky out my window and say “Life is easy”
I wish I could have back all the time I’ve wasted and the chances I’ve lost being sick – but I’d pass on that wish if I could just be healthy in the future. That’s what keeps me going. There’s a chance that wish could come true. Isn’t there?
Greg
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