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confused about life; meds?

Posted by Patches on July 15, 2001, at 13:09:50

guess I'm okay... just so tired. took lorazapam to sleep...just need to sleep. all i ever wanted was to feel love to feel someone cared. he doesn't care enough about my feelings; he doesn't care about my pain. he deals with me by keeping distance. that's safer for him but not for me. it's my fault for hoping in fairy tales. I don't want people to feel bad because I can't reach their expectations. I'm the weakling.
he thinks I don't need meds. I stopped them for the summer. Probably a mistake. Maybe I'd built tolerance to them. I'll start them again in the fall when there will be more stresses to deal with... stresses that I'm not sure i can handle anymore. Who knows what will happen between now and then.

Re: confused about life; meds?

Posted by Glenn Fagelson on July 15, 2001, at 15:27:19

In reply to confused about life; meds?, posted by Patches on July 15, 2001, at 13:09:50

> guess I'm okay... just so tired. took lorazapam to sleep...just need to sleep. all i ever wanted was to feel love to feel someone cared. he doesn't care enough about my feelings; he doesn't care about my pain. he deals with me by keeping distance. that's safer for him but not for me. it's my fault for hoping in fairy tales. I don't want people to feel bad because I can't reach their expectations. I'm the weakling.
> he thinks I don't need meds. I stopped them for the summer. Probably a mistake. Maybe I'd built tolerance to them. I'll start them again in the fall when there will be more stresses to deal with... stresses that I'm not sure i can handle anymore. Who knows what will happen between now and then.

Dear patches,

It sounds like you are in a lot of pain.
Has your relationship with your boyfriend
broken up? What do you think? Do you think
that you need to be on your meds? I hope
you will be feeling better soon; I know
how it is when one gets in a place where
mainly all they want is to be loved.

Please take care,
Glenn

Re: confused about life; meds? » Patches

Posted by kid_A on July 15, 2001, at 19:38:13

In reply to confused about life; meds?, posted by Patches on July 15, 2001, at 13:09:50

i could tell you to ignore the ignorant, those who think that medication is for the weak, those who dont understand the depth of emotion that you can feel, i could tell you that this person isn't worth your time, but maybe you don't want to hear that... it's not what i would want to hear... i chase after those i am doomed never to catch... i reach for the prize that is farthest from my grasp...

one thing you should know is that you should never feel faulted for putting your trust in someone blindly... you should never feel faulted for your own emotions that you are entitled to... you should never feel faulted for loving someone who is not as capable as you of showing love and you should not feel faulted for still loving that person, regardeless of their actions...

lorazepam, i know what its like, im on my (one day) xanax holiday today, and its all i can do not to take some... love is messing with my brain and all i want to do is sleep... but im going to sleep the sleep of the just, i will sleep knowing that i am no dog to be kicked, nor you, none of us playthings or posessions, none of us ragdolls but rather human beings more capable of emotion than most...

if anything, i wish you peace.

to Glen

Posted by Patches on July 15, 2001, at 19:46:13

In reply to Re: confused about life; meds?, posted by Glenn Fagelson on July 15, 2001, at 15:27:19

Thank you Glenn for your words of support. It seems like this is the only place I can come to where people truly understand the pain another can feel. My family who say they love me walk away from me when my needs are the greatest and my self-esteem the lowest. I get so afraid sometimes. I have no options in my life. I feel so trapped. If there was a reason for it all, things would be different; but there is no happiness to be hoped for in any direction. If one truly loves another, they would understand the pain and try to do something to help. Each day I understand more and more why the hopeless find no alternative but to take their own lives. Without love there is nothing to believe in or hope for.
Thanks again, Glenn!
PaTCHES

Re: to Glen

Posted by Glenn Fagelson on July 16, 2001, at 23:06:39

In reply to to Glen, posted by Patches on July 15, 2001, at 19:46:13

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>
> Thank you Glenn for your words of support. It seems like this is the only place I can come to where people truly understand the pain another can feel. My family who say they love me walk away from me when my needs are the greatest and my self-esteem the lowest. I get so afraid sometimes. I have no options in my life. I feel so trapped. If there was a reason for it all, things would be different; but there is no happiness to be hoped for in any direction. If one truly loves another, they would understand the pain and try to do something to help. Each day I understand more and more why the hopeless find no alternative but to take their own lives. Without love there is nothing to believe in or hope for.
> Thanks again, Glenn!
> PaTCHES

Hi Patches,
You sound very hopeless! Are you thinking
about hurting yourself??
Glenn

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