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Posted by andie1970 on January 7, 2004, at 12:09:53
I am feeling lower than low. I didn't know where to go, but since I posted here before, I thought I would come here. I recently lost my uncle who i was close to, and my mother is currently sick, and then i learned my father is using nitro patches. my anxiety is so overwheleming, i just can't take it anymore. i am in school, but have no interest anymore. i used to always be able to numb myself with television, but last night, i couldn't even watch one show and i knew that was bad. i couldn't read, or numb out in any way. i couldn't find a way out of the despair. i am lost, and it feels so damn dark in here. i feel weak, and feel like doing nothing. i am reaching out here because i am scared about how bad i feel. i don't want to talk to anyone, call anyone. i have a counselor, but she's less than comforting. i can't tell my family, they have enough stress. i am just here, because i don't know where to go.
Posted by SLS on January 7, 2004, at 15:14:11
In reply to suicidal, posted by andie1970 on January 7, 2004, at 12:09:53
It is important to get your anxiety under control. Anxiety is one of the biggest contributors to suicidality. What does your doctor have to say about all of this?
Don't give up just yet. Stick around...
- Scott
Posted by Brown_cow on January 7, 2004, at 16:41:33
In reply to Re: suicidal, posted by SLS on January 7, 2004, at 15:14:11
If you are feeling that low you probably should take time to inform someone because you have work which might not get done and you'll need a good explination eventually.
Try taking "pregnanelone" and "inositol Hexanicotinate" from the supplement store for a couple of days to see if that lifts the anxiety.
Trust me when I say I've been down too though. I guess everyone here has. My dog died, I lost my job, my father had a heart attack, I was betrayed by friends, and I was told I required a transplant to live ... all in one month. Can you say panic and dispair? But i'm doing much better these days. So life goes on and you won't notice the long trek back to normal too much after a time.
You could try a good movie, a good steak or pasta dinner out, and your favortie magazine too. Don't do it all on one day though.
I've also gone swimming at the school or YMCA to get through some of the blues.
you'll have your ups and downs though.
Posted by Brown_cow on January 7, 2004, at 17:02:26
In reply to suicidal, posted by andie1970 on January 7, 2004, at 12:09:53
If you need to talk you can also try the suicide prevention line.
if you don't want to talk you can try video games if you have any on your computer. I like the ones that give you online interaction with other people.
The best book on depression I've read (the only book on depression I've read) is "Depression for Dummies." It is a very well written book if you are not too depressed to pick it up and actually read it.
Posted by TeeJay on January 7, 2004, at 18:50:30
In reply to suicidal, posted by andie1970 on January 7, 2004, at 12:09:53
Hi Andie,
I too suffer sometimes endless and overwhelming anxiety and I appreciate just how horrible it is!!
The way I get through the darkest times is to imagine the experience is the effects of a bad drug and will pass in time. However much you think your period of gloom will never end, it most certainly will, all you have to do is sit it out and a good time will appear often as if from nowhere. I know it doesnt seem as though it will at the time, but once the better time arrives, the hideous depression seems so trivial.
Remember, a bad time is only temporary.Best Wishes and stick around here, its ok :-)
TJ
Posted by Brown_cow on January 7, 2004, at 19:20:28
In reply to Re: suicidal, posted by TeeJay on January 7, 2004, at 18:50:30
Sitting it out sounds good to me too. Probably less expensive than my earlier suggestions too.
Posted by Wolf Dreamer on January 7, 2004, at 23:54:35
In reply to suicidal, posted by andie1970 on January 7, 2004, at 12:09:53
Feeling impulsive? Like there is no tommorrow, that you must act now, no turning back...
Try not to do anything you'll later regret... of course if you are dead, you won't be able to regret it. Bah.
Lets see...
The feeling of depression is overwhelming, and it is hard to imagine that you will one day be past it.
My depression was caused by being bullied constantly, and stuck in a noisy, hot, frustrating environment at home, hating noise and heat greatly.
But, after my parents finally got a working air conditioning that didn't break down on regular occassions, and I got past the school years I was forced to go to class with bullies, it got better.
Is there anything you look forward to? Going camping with a Boy Scout troop, or some sort of entertainment media? I used to look forward to the monthly camping trips my scout troop went out. Having something, anything to look forward to, in the otherwise seemingly hopeless and pointless future is important. Even a tiny bit of light in the otherwise dark void of your abysmal life.... hmmm... well, then again I didn't have any friends I hung out with, being antisocial and all. Perhaps you have someone you can talk to in person, if you are the social type.
Does your life seem hopeless without direction, without any point to it all? It will get better, eventually.
And no matter how much life sucks, its still got to be better than death.
I'm trying to help but not sure if I'm able.
Just wanted to say, been there, done that, got better in the end, please don't let some bad thing set you off and push you over the edge. Think about those that care about you and how horrible that would make them feel. Try to find something to look forward to in life.
Look at this picture I found in someone's sig file on my game maker's forum, and laugh at the penguins.
http://home.comcast.net/~grubbsscott/image001.gifOh well. Good luck. You are about to face the greatest battle of your life, and will certainly need it. *posses melodramatically and wishes you well*
Posted by CarolW on January 8, 2004, at 11:46:50
In reply to suicidal, posted by andie1970 on January 7, 2004, at 12:09:53
First of all, know that when your time is up is not for you to decide. God's not finished with you! You're alive! Yeah! So, you need to make the most of your life...
Get connected with yourself. Know that bad times always pass. Take a relaxing bath. Start writing in a journal every time you feel funky. Get a massage (physical connection can help your depression). Start working to focus on positives - I believe we can alter some of our own brain chemistry through our thoughts.And do call someone you can count on. You should not be alone when you're down. You'd be surprised how many people would be there for you if you just ask. If you don't know anyone you trust, call any church, helpline, etc... If your therapist sucks, find another one. I had to do that. Mine is not very good. So, I'm looking for another. Also, every school has a health office - see if they can get you some help. My university has a great mental health support service - I imagine most do.
Your parents are going through a hard time. You need to get yourself better so that you can be strong to deal with the issues your family is facing. You all need each other.
Many blessings to you. Again, remember, that you need support - and those around you also need you. So, hang in there and make a commitment to yourself to get to feeling better. You're important.
Posted by Kalamatianos on January 10, 2004, at 0:59:41
In reply to Re: suicidal. been there before. please READ this, posted by Wolf Dreamer on January 7, 2004, at 23:54:35
<<<And no matter how much life sucks, its still got to be better than death.
>>>Best few words I've read yet............
Thanx
Posted by Psychopoppy on January 10, 2004, at 2:57:08
In reply to suicidal, posted by andie1970 on January 7, 2004, at 12:09:53
Hey there Andie1970
Hope you're still with us. Dont feel alone. We're all here and you can write anytime and someone will write back and share your pain. You dont have to be all alone in this. Just writing and venting goes a long way sometimes. Noone judges you here so feel free to write and tell us whatever you want.
But whatever you do, please dont go away yet....
just being alive is enough reason to live :-)
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