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Posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 1:52:41
with the meds that i've been on in the past. you would think that would be better off now.
i still have no friends... well my best friend that is a guy that my DH hates (because he's a guy) and i cant spend time with.
My T, who keeps canceling on me. my pdoc who is barely available...ever.my DH is an a44hole, and some days i want out just becuase i cant deal with his borderline issues and anger.
ive dropped like a rock and see no purpose in life and never want to do anything again.
right now i am wishing someone would lock me up and i could just stay there and veg fro a year or so.
i HATE being So tired but NOT being able to sleep. i HATE sleeping in, cuz i forget my meds and it messes up my whole day.
i still have STRONG urges to down ALL the 'extra' meds that i have in the cabinet.
i want to walk into the nearest lake and slowly sink and exhale till there's nothing left.
i want to slice out my heart.i just.... and it goes on. i need to just sleep.
-b2
Posted by Lou Pilder on December 31, 2014, at 6:27:55
In reply to just need to talk *Trigger*, posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 1:52:41
> with the meds that i've been on in the past. you would think that would be better off now.
> i still have no friends... well my best friend that is a guy that my DH hates (because he's a guy) and i cant spend time with.
> My T, who keeps canceling on me. my pdoc who is barely available...ever.
>
> my DH is an a44hole, and some days i want out just becuase i cant deal with his borderline issues and anger.
>
> ive dropped like a rock and see no purpose in life and never want to do anything again.
>
> right now i am wishing someone would lock me up and i could just stay there and veg fro a year or so.
>
> i HATE being So tired but NOT being able to sleep. i HATE sleeping in, cuz i forget my meds and it messes up my whole day.
>
> i still have STRONG urges to down ALL the 'extra' meds that i have in the cabinet.
> i want to walk into the nearest lake and slowly sink and exhale till there's nothing left.
> i want to slice out my heart.
>
> i just.... and it goes on. i need to just sleep.
> -b2
>
> b2,
You wrote,[...(I've) dropped like a rock and see no purpose in life...I am wishing someone would lock me up and (I) could just stay there and veg (for) a year or so...I have a STRONG urge to down ALL the 'extra' meds that (I) have in the cabinet...(I) want to walk into the nearest lake and slowly sink and exhale till there's nothing left...(I) want to slice out my heart...(I) need to just sleep...just need to talk...].
I agree that talking could be a life-line here. I am unsure as to what line of talking it could be that you would approve of as having dialog with members here. If you could post answers to the following, then I could respond accordingly.
True or False:
A. I want to talk about what drug(s) I should take for the condition that I am in, Lou
B. I want to talk about what the origin is that is inducing the feelings of seeing no purpose in life, Lou
C. I want to talk about finding a way out of the dread that is wanting for me to slice my heart out, Lou, that does not involve talking mind-altering drugs in collaboration with a psychiatrist/doctor
D. I do not want to talk with you, Lou, for the God that you give service and worship to, in my heart I do not believe in.
E. something else
Lou
Posted by SLS on December 31, 2014, at 7:54:33
In reply to just need to talk *Trigger*, posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 1:52:41
That's quite a list of challenges.
Now is a bad time to make decisions.
Allow yourself to be human.
You'll be okay.
- Scott
Posted by Lou Pilder on December 31, 2014, at 8:44:01
In reply to Re: just need to talk *Trigger* » b2chica, posted by SLS on December 31, 2014, at 7:54:33
> That's quite a list of challenges.
>
> Now is a bad time to make decisions.
>
> Allow yourself to be human.
>
> You'll be okay.
>
>
> - ScottScott,
You wrote,[...Now is a bad time to make decisions...You'll be OK...].
I am unsure as to what , if anything, you are wanting the poster, b2, to be led to believe. If you could post answers to the following, then I could have the opportunity to respond accordingly.
A. The reason that it is a bad time for b2 to make decisions is because:
______________________________________________
______________________________________________
B. The reason that the poster, b2, will be OK is because:
_____________________________________________
_____________________________________________
Lou
Posted by Phillipa on December 31, 2014, at 9:04:24
In reply to Lou's request-bhadtyme » SLS, posted by Lou Pilder on December 31, 2014, at 8:44:01
Lou do you make decisions with important things in your life when you are upset severely or do you wait till you feel better that is the advise I feel that is being given to B2chica P
Posted by SLS on December 31, 2014, at 13:58:15
In reply to Re: Lou's request-bhadtyme » Lou Pilder, posted by Phillipa on December 31, 2014, at 9:04:24
Posted by SLS on December 31, 2014, at 14:30:58
In reply to just need to talk *Trigger*, posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 1:52:41
Someone posed two questions to me earlier in this thread.
1. The answer to the first question is obvious, and adequately addressed by Phillipa. I would just add that you have been in psychologically and emotionally bad places before, and have always emerged from them - although not necessarily completely happy. You will emerge from this bad place, too. When you do, you will have a more balanced perspective with which to evaluate your illness and the resources you have to work with to effect change.
2. As to the second question, I won't offer guarantees that you will reach a state of perfect mental health. However, because of your history of tenacity and positive attitude, I think you will find places of contentment. You will be okay because you already are. At this point, I doubt that you have exhausted available treatment alternatives. For instance, I have seen someone who had been depressed and very treatment resistant go on to respond well to a combination of Abilify, Lamictal, and minocycline. It was the addition of minocycline that propelled her to remission. If you have already tried this, I would be quite impressed with your physician. In that case, you might want to explore the two treatments that I am currently exploring: intranasal ketamine and low-dosage naltrexone (LDN). I mention these treatments, not because I am convinced that you will respond to them, but, rather, to demonstrate that there is hope to be found in unexplored treatment strategies. In the meantime, I think you can find balance and contentment in the absence of remission. Perhaps you can take advantage psychotherapies to aid you in this. One way or the other, you'll be okay.
:-)
- Scott
Posted by ClearSkies on December 31, 2014, at 14:49:56
In reply to just need to talk *Trigger*, posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 1:52:41
I have been there several times this year. I have to point out that not all our depressive thinking is dependent on our medications. You have a lot to deal with, just keeping it together.
I have come through the dark side a couple of times, just by deciding to wait a half hour to reassess how I am feeling. That's just an idea.You will feel better than this.
Posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 18:54:17
In reply to Re: just need to talk *Trigger*, posted by ClearSkies on December 31, 2014, at 14:49:56
thank u clear skies
Posted by b2chica on January 1, 2015, at 3:47:45
In reply to Re: just need to talk *Trigger* » b2chica, posted by SLS on December 31, 2014, at 7:54:33
i have always appreciated your input scott. thank you.
-b
Posted by Elanor Roosevelt on January 3, 2015, at 12:22:59
In reply to Re: just need to talk *Trigger*, posted by b2chica on January 1, 2015, at 3:47:45
knowing you will come back from the dark side is part memory part leap of faith
hang in there
be kind to yourself as best you can
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