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Posted by rjlockhart '05 on August 2, 2008, at 21:07:13
Listen,
Im back.........how's everyone doing, i havent been doing good on posting, just in life in general.
Why is everything in my mind, all the major isses "held back", there is something that is holding me from the main issue. Its....i cannot put it into words....when i explain it to people, they dont understand, no one understands what hell my mind put me through.
I have lived in so much pain, i'm going to tell you straight up. If you dont believe, go with the world.....there is other people in my danm head!
Coping mechanisms.....its all apart of realization that i failed to operate as an idividuel, no one else can run my life expept one. Active Imgaination......this is caused from the reality i see, and dont understand. I become someone else..... people are like whatever. The term "i dont care" makes my blood boil......you talk about your problems like its a conversation and ignore it? Thats because you have support from others, i dont. My mind has to support itsself through other hosts. The problem, when does a host take control over a person.
I'm not schizophrenic, i admit, i dissocaite alot. So what ever happens happens. "Sh*t happens"
I wont ever tell my psychiatrist this... only like a confidencial therpist.
Why? its logical.
Posted by 10derHeart on August 2, 2008, at 23:35:06
In reply to Issues i can't tell my psychiatrist, posted by rjlockhart '05 on August 2, 2008, at 21:07:13
>I wont ever tell my psychiatrist this... only like a confidencial therpist.
Anything you tell your pdoc would be completely confidential, (unless you've signed a release for him to talk to anyone else) so I'm not sure what you meant here..?
Are you seeing a pdoc for meds, and also someone else for talk therapy? Or does your pdoc do both?
Could you print this post and just hand it to him, or maybe get yourself to tell him you're afraid to tell him certain things? Even saying that, I've found, can start some good therapy sessions.
I know it's really, really hard when you don't feel confident people will understand what you mean when you talk. I really do. I have ADD, and though it's under good control through meds and therapy, it will *always* be part of who I am, and I still get frustrated with all kinds of communications. But one thing I do is keep trying, especially to think of some other way to get the message out. It's not easy. I feel for you.
I did want to say once more, I hope you really, really seriously consider letting your therapist/pdoc see this post. In my opinion, any therapist would really *want* to know that you know you dissociate, that you feel you have "other people in your da*n head," and things about a "host takes control over a person." Not to make a new diagnosis or a different one - that's not at all what I'm thinking - (although that's always a possibility, especially if you're seeing a new pdoc) - a label is only a label after all. It is not you.
But the purpose would be so he can "hear" what it's like to be *you* on the inside. I don't mean to pressure you or argue with you or anything (I think you know me from the past here enough to know I care and I wouldn't do that) but I sincerely believe you *can* put it into words because you just did - at least a little of it - here on Babble. Sometimes, if I couldn't say a thing, I could write it, you know?
Hope this made a little sense. People care about you here and want you to feel better and be able to enjoy your life. You take care and keep posting :-)
-- 10der
Posted by Phillipa on August 2, 2008, at 23:55:10
In reply to Re: Issues i can't tell my psychiatrist » rjlockhart '05, posted by 10derHeart on August 2, 2008, at 23:35:06
RJ yes have you considered also posting about this on the psychology board. It could be helpful. But you do want to see a psychologist IRL or a counselor some type of therapist. You do remember me right? Love Phillipa
Posted by yxibow on August 3, 2008, at 1:58:54
In reply to Issues i can't tell my psychiatrist, posted by rjlockhart '05 on August 2, 2008, at 21:07:13
> Listen,
>
> Im back.........how's everyone doing, i havent been doing good on posting, just in life in general.
>
> Why is everything in my mind, all the major isses "held back", there is something that is holding me from the main issue. Its....i cannot put it into words....when i explain it to people, they dont understand, no one understands what hell my mind put me through.
>
> I have lived in so much pain, i'm going to tell you straight up. If you dont believe, go with the world.....there is other people in my danm head!
>
> Coping mechanisms.....its all apart of realization that i failed to operate as an idividuel, no one else can run my life expept one. Active Imgaination......this is caused from the reality i see, and dont understand. I become someone else..... people are like whatever. The term "i dont care" makes my blood boil......you talk about your problems like its a conversation and ignore it? Thats because you have support from others, i dont. My mind has to support itsself through other hosts. The problem, when does a host take control over a person.
>
> I'm not schizophrenic, i admit, i dissocaite alot. So what ever happens happens. "Sh*t happens"
>
> I wont ever tell my psychiatrist this... only like a confidencial therpist.
>
> Why? its logical.
A psychiatrist is at least as confidental as a practicing psychologist -- there are only a few situations where those holding licences of either type must report things and they remain pretty true for most states if not a national credo -- imminent abuse of an elder or imminent sexual abuse of a minor; imminent homicidal (if you've killed someone already the doctor-patient confidientiality is sealed, I'm not going to go into criminal mental illness, its not my territory) or immminent suicidal intent (and not just telling your doctor you've thought of suicide before -- thats a big problem and makes people leery to tell their doctor about these things, but you know, who else are you going to tell and ultimately its in the benefit of you because your doctor may have strategies to help you cope with these thoughts).
Characterizing yourself with "not being schizophrenic" (which I can't evaluate you but it doesnt seem to be the case ?) or characterizing yourself as "dissociating" and hiding that from your psychiatrist makes it a lot harder for things to be treated.What's the point of going to someone with therapeutic value if you don't tell them how you feel?
If you don't like your doctor, then find someone else, if that is what is worrying you, but I'm not advocating that either because a doctor-patient relationship takes time.
In any case self-diagnosis is not particularly helpful -- dissociation, which I sometimes believe I have, is a particular state of psychiatric being that a psychiatrist may think in their mind as something completely different. There are other terms for things that really don't fall as "dissociating" -- even medications can cause side effects that can feel like that.
-- hope you feel better and I hope you find someone to communicate if not your doctor
-- Jay
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