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Posted by partlycloudy on May 9, 2005, at 13:13:33
After a week at a half dose of 100mg, and a great start - hello, energy!, I'm a quivering mass of anxiety and still depressed. I found I was having to take xanax to counter the anxiety that the Provigil caused.
I threw in the towel at work, unable to pull my act together long enough to get through 8 hours at a whack without bawling my eyes out. ugh. ugh. ugh. I swear my boss looked relieved when I told her I'd be leaving. But to have to say out loud that I couldn't say when or if I'd be better - well, that feels really crummy. Not that I remember what "normal" feels like - my life these past many months has been depression, anxiety, panic attacks, and probably 3 whole weeks in total of hypomania so mild it masqueraded as getting lippy at work, and having enough energy to start many little projects at home (and finishing *none* of them).I am so over this.
Posted by Declan on May 9, 2005, at 14:58:14
In reply to Ugh. Provigil was NOT the right thing after all..., posted by partlycloudy on May 9, 2005, at 13:13:33
I eventually discontinued Adrafanil, it didn't help me function at all. Pretty stark and tense.
Declan
Posted by TamaraJ on May 9, 2005, at 17:54:13
In reply to Ugh. Provigil was NOT the right thing after all..., posted by partlycloudy on May 9, 2005, at 13:13:33
I am so sorry that Provigil didn't prove to be more effective for you. That just plain stinks! It really does become increasingly obvious as we try these things that no two people will respond the same to any one medication.
I know you are probably sick of hearing this, but hang in there pc and take good care of yourself.
Tamara
Posted by Phillipa on May 9, 2005, at 18:42:30
In reply to Re: Ugh. Provigil was NOT the right thing after all... » partlycloudy, posted by TamaraJ on May 9, 2005, at 17:54:13
I'm sorry it didn't work for you. I had a friend that tried the med and the same thing happened to her. How do you manage to work with so many problems? Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 8:10:18
In reply to Re: Ugh. Provigil was NOT the right thing after all..., posted by Phillipa on May 9, 2005, at 18:42:30
That's the really cruel joke, Phillipa. I gave my notice yesterday at work. Can't do it any more.
pc
Posted by Phillipa on May 10, 2005, at 16:34:25
In reply to Re: Ugh. Provigil was NOT the right thing after all..., posted by Phillipa on May 9, 2005, at 18:42:30
Well I don't want to sound selfish, and I truly am so very sorry about you having to quit work. Now the but. I have been feeling really guilty about not working in 8 years, so now at least I know I'm not alone. So many of the others here are going to med school, holding down impressive jobs, and in general seem to be doing so well. I've often wanted to just ask, what are you doing are you working? How did you get meds to work? Your meds aren't working? Then how do you manage to work? Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 18:59:21
In reply to Re: Ugh. Provigil was NOT the right thing after all... » Phillipa, posted by Phillipa on May 10, 2005, at 16:34:25
I hung in there far beyond my "best by" date. I think that I worked for so long because I could, somehow, even while making things even worse for myself. The tale goes on for a few decades by now. I remember when a doctor said to me after my first panic attack, "the question isn't whether you're able to do the job. the question is, why do the job in the first place?" He was so obnoxious, and so wise. I hated/loved that doctor. NHS, of all places... and he practiced very good medicine on me.
Happily (now THAT's a word you don't see at babble often), I will be able to fully concentrate on functioning at the highest level I can achieve, without the added stress of working.
It is (finally), a challenge I hope I am up to.
Posted by Phillipa on May 10, 2005, at 20:02:44
In reply to Re: Ugh. Provigil was NOT the right thing after all... » Phillipa, posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 18:59:21
You mean you don't live in the USA? I thought you did. Well, I guess that means that you won't have the added stress of not being able to pay your bills, or medical. At least I think NHS is European. Correct me if I'm wrong. I found the first year of not working great. Then each year created more guilt. Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 20:47:17
In reply to Re: Ugh. Provigil was NOT the right thing after all... » partlycloudy, posted by Phillipa on May 10, 2005, at 20:02:44
i do live in the us. i lived in the u.k. for 7 years.
Posted by Phillipa on May 10, 2005, at 21:20:18
In reply to Re: Ugh. Provigil was NOT the right thing after all... » Phillipa, posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 20:47:17
I thought so. I hope you can apply for disability or have a short term one you're enrolled in. Mine paid 60 percent for I think 8 months. Fondly, Phillipa
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