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Posted by Panic AttacK on February 13, 2002, at 9:53:29
I have the desire to kill my mother. She is driving me crazy. ALl she does is yell and bitch and it drives me crazy. She is probally the reason for my anxiety disorder. My whole like she raised me in a screaming and bitching enviroment. I am 21 years old but not well enough to move out and get my own place. When I wake up, she's screaming, before i go to sleep... she's yelling from across the house. She drives me insane. She has this nasty cat that vomits everywhere everyday. ALl over my bed, on our couches, on our kitchen table, he shits in our bathtub, in the kitchen. Its been this way for years. She is yelling right now. All my firends always told me she was a crazybitch but i never wanted to except it and take it. My teachers would tell me she was a wacko and when I say something to her... she yells even more that shes not crazy. She believes the Mafia is after her and they are out to kill her. She thinks the "gay mafia" follows her. She takes alot of pills at night to sleep... for probally 20 years now. I want to slip something in her pills so it kills her. She is a BITCH. She always takes me money from me ... shes onsly nice when she needs something. I know she is supporting me..blah blha blah... but i cant take it. She is evil. She believes in god and prays alottttt but most people think she is a nice person. HAHAHA.... she doesnt have any friends..... she hasnt had a boyfirned in 15 years... she is quite bueatiful... tall skinny blonde. She works 15 hours 7 days a week. VERY HARD WORKER... but she drives me crazy. I always think about killing her. IS this part of my anxiety/panic disorder?? I picture they way I kill her... i dream of waking up and finding her dead in her bed... i always think of an easy way to kill her so she doesnt suffer to much. Maybe I am just really upset right now but times like this is when i would actually go and do something CRAZY. What do I do?
Posted by ST on February 14, 2002, at 5:02:17
In reply to ------MURDER------, posted by Panic AttacK on February 13, 2002, at 9:53:29
PA:
It good that you can talk about your desire to kill her; then maybe you actually won't. Of course you know this, but doing so would make your life even worse than you feel it is now.....
Living with her is ruining your mental health. You must get out. I know money must be tight otherwise you would have moved out! Are you working? Going to school? Are there friends you can move in with? I think the sooner you distance yourself from her, the saner you will feel. If you can, save every penny. Make moving out your ultimate goal and cling to it in desperate times to get you through. If you aren't living with her you can start flourishing and living and getting better. She sounds like a sick woman.
Let me know what happens.
Sarah
Posted by paulb on February 14, 2002, at 17:18:28
In reply to ------MURDER------, posted by Panic AttacK on February 13, 2002, at 9:53:29
> I have the desire to kill my mother. She is driving me crazy. ALl she does is yell and bitch and it drives me crazy. She is probally the reason for my anxiety disorder. My whole like she raised me in a screaming and bitching enviroment. I am 21 years old but not well enough to move out and get my own place. When I wake up, she's screaming, before i go to sleep... she's yelling from across the house. She drives me insane. She has this nasty cat that vomits everywhere everyday. ALl over my bed, on our couches, on our kitchen table, he shits in our bathtub, in the kitchen. Its been this way for years. She is yelling right now. All my firends always told me she was a crazybitch but i never wanted to except it and take it. My teachers would tell me she was a wacko and when I say something to her... she yells even more that shes not crazy. She believes the Mafia is after her and they are out to kill her. She thinks the "gay mafia" follows her. She takes alot of pills at night to sleep... for probally 20 years now. I want to slip something in her pills so it kills her. She is a BITCH. She always takes me money from me ... shes onsly nice when she needs something. I know she is supporting me..blah blha blah... but i cant take it. She is evil. She believes in god and prays alottttt but most people think she is a nice person. HAHAHA.... she doesnt have any friends..... she hasnt had a boyfirned in 15 years... she is quite bueatiful... tall skinny blonde. She works 15 hours 7 days a week. VERY HARD WORKER... but she drives me crazy. I always think about killing her. IS this part of my anxiety/panic disorder?? I picture they way I kill her... i dream of waking up and finding her dead in her bed... i always think of an easy way to kill her so she doesnt suffer to much. Maybe I am just really upset right now but times like this is when i would actually go and do something CRAZY. What do I do?
What you describe sounds very difficult. I cant comment too much obviously but your mother as you describe her sounds like a sick person. If your mother wasnt always like this perhaps you could learn to recognise that its the illness and not her? Is she has been taking sleeping pills for twenty years and working seven days a week, and does not have any friends I would have thought it would obviously be having a detrimental effect on her wellbeing which may help you to recognise that she is not a well person. I took into consideration your age. Perhaps now that you are 21 you are in a better position to stand up to you mother in a way you could not do before, now that you are an adult. I would support what the person said before about your objective being to get out. Your message really does let on that you are very unhappy and so is your mother. Maybe you cannot help her but you can help yourself. For the timebeing you could distance yourself from your mother by spending more time away from her. With your own friends?, work?, college?
Mind how you go. I hope things work out.
Paulb
Posted by MaKi on February 14, 2002, at 17:37:33
In reply to Re: ------MURDER------, posted by paulb on February 14, 2002, at 17:18:28
I think I can understand why you would feel so angry
with your mother, especially if she's always screaming
and making your life hell but if I was you, I wouldn't
go and post things like you did, saying you feel the
desire to kill her! You know, if something ever happened
to her and someone would read your postings, you would
be the first one they would look for! I know you are
probably really angry but I agree with what the others
have advised you, just keep your distance and try to
find a better life for yourself.Good luck,
MaKi
Posted by Mr. Scott on February 14, 2002, at 19:25:30
In reply to ------MURDER------, posted by Panic AttacK on February 13, 2002, at 9:53:29
I just fell out of my chair and hit my head from laughing so hard! You need to look at it this way..Maybe the reason your not well is because you stay there! GET OUT OF THERE!
Take Xanax, Jack Daniels, and Heroin if you need to, but GET OUT OF THERE!
just my opinion having lived with two similar people.
Scott
Posted by MaKi on February 14, 2002, at 19:44:36
In reply to Re: ------MURDER------ » Panic AttacK, posted by Mr. Scott on February 14, 2002, at 19:25:30
Scott, I agree with you all the way! I like the way
you said that you fell off your chair and hit your
head 'cause of laughing too hard! Haha!MaKi
Posted by adamie on February 14, 2002, at 23:03:48
In reply to Re: ------MURDER------(Scott), posted by MaKi on February 14, 2002, at 19:44:36
> Scott, I agree with you all the way! I like the way
> you said that you fell off your chair and hit your
> head 'cause of laughing too hard! Haha!
>
> MaKithis is nothing to LAUGH about.
Posted by MaKi on February 15, 2002, at 8:24:16
In reply to Re: ------MURDER------(Scott) » MaKi, posted by adamie on February 14, 2002, at 23:03:48
No kidding it's nothing to laugh about! As if you
go and post things like that in the first place.
If you feel the urge to kill someone, go get help
instead of telling the world what you want to do!
Posted by Panic_Attack on February 15, 2002, at 16:30:06
In reply to Re: ------MURDER------, posted by ST on February 14, 2002, at 5:02:17
OK... im more calm now... I was so upset and now I look at what I wrote and feel so guilty. I love my mom so much but shes psycho. i am not well enough myself to move out. My car was stolen... im in the process of buying another one... i only make 9$ an hour... I hate college... i dont ever want to go back. I had a full Music scholarship to the University of Miami but I lost all interest in music and life. ANYWAYS... Maybe Ill become a stripper or something... i want to move out SO BAD!!! But I cant afford it. Living with my mom is making me MENTAL! Scott.... your post made me laugh.... i sound like a maniac dont I? lol...
Posted by ST on February 15, 2002, at 16:59:36
In reply to Re: -*-----MURDER-----*-, posted by Panic_Attack on February 15, 2002, at 16:30:06
Find a way to move out. Do what you have to do. Save for the car, get the car, become more stable...whatever it takes - make it a priority! She is going to drive you up a wall!
Also - don't worry about posting your murderous feelings - we've all been there. This is exactly the place to vent.
ST
Posted by Mr. Scott on February 15, 2002, at 19:04:14
In reply to Re: -*-----MURDER-----*-, posted by Panic_Attack on February 15, 2002, at 16:30:06
Hello,
You're not the first person to feel like killing someone. I feel like it daily, but never do, and never will..
It's called frustration, and you needed to spout off. No problem with that.
But I would work towards getting out of there anyways.
Good Luck,
Scott
Posted by angel1 on February 15, 2002, at 20:31:53
In reply to ------MURDER------, posted by Panic AttacK on February 13, 2002, at 9:53:29
> I have the desire to kill my mother.
GO FOR IT. KILL THE F---ING BITCH. SHE SOUNDS
HORRIBLE. MAKE YOUR LIFE EASIER AND HAPPIER.
Posted by Dr. Bob on February 16, 2002, at 2:21:54
In reply to Re: ------MURDER------, posted by angel1 on February 15, 2002, at 20:31:53
> > I have the desire to kill my mother.
>
> GO FOR IT. KILL THE F---ING BITCH.Please don't suggest that anyone harm themselves or anyone else. I've asked you to watch what you post before, so I'm going to block you from posting again.
Bob
PS: Follow-ups about posting policies should be redirected to Psycho-Babble Administration, thanks.
Posted by MaKi on February 16, 2002, at 7:44:26
In reply to Re: ------MURDER------, posted by angel1 on February 15, 2002, at 20:31:53
That isn't a very nice thing to say to others!
It doesn't matter how horrible a person is, that
person never deserves to die! And, maybe she's
psychotic because she hasn't gotten any help yet,
how do you know you'll never be in the same shoes
as that person? You never know what the tide will
bring...MaKi
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